staring at the ceiling, lying on my bed. my mind went blank for a moment. n all thoughts came rushing in again. what the hell am i doing right now. NOTHING. cursing myself at this very moment, shouldn't i be out there, serving the community or at the very least doing something beneficial. NOPE. i'm just lazing around doing virtually nothing. i feel so useless.
looking back at what happened the last few years, at times are havoc and meaningless. the problem is, i don't know what i want in life! even now that i'm doing the course that i've been longing for since i started out my a-levels, i still don't know what i wanna do after i graduate. true, get a job. who doesn't know that. but i still feel something is missing. i don't know what is it, but something just seems missing.
gosh!! i feel like going through mid-life crisis. i feel so inadequate.