Friday, July 03, 2009

when problems is not a problem

when you needed help the most, who can you turn to; your dad? your friend? or your foe? you'll be surprise sometimes your greatest enemy shows you the light.

it's hard to identify a problem, when sometimes i think there's none. denial mode? maybe. however, by not identify there isn't any problem at the first place; there wouldn't be any problem...in subsequent thoughts, problem doesn't exist. true? partially. suppression? probably.

i'm not asking anyone to agree with me. it's just a random thought.

it caught me thinking, when friends ask; 'are you ok?', 'is there a problem?'. if you know me, my usual response would be; 'i'm fine', 'no problem'.

am i strong, or am i covering it up? am i really that optimistic, or am i just plain ignorant? ignorant as in avoiding problems, throwing it way back to the cabinet of memory. honestly... i don't know.

i know i have to deal with situations if it's smack right at my face. implicitly... i can't get in touch with my inner self. i feel it's dark and scary, it send shivers down my spine just thinking bout it. yet, this is something i have to face.

in the end, i think i'm an avoider, fearful, ignorant son of a ______.

2 comments:

Unknown said...

eh, do u know u indirectly scolding/putting ur mom down?
please edit the last few words.
thank you~

Michael.Horn said...

Hahaha, nice one joycy.