crossroads

i think i've blogged this before. anyway, i'm in the middle of crossroads again. it's nothing new. we all face it all the time. making a decision, hoping that it's the right one. weighing the consequences, hoping that it seems fair to every party.

i'm being offer a job, seems alrite. i don't know about the potential of the company, as it's still rather new and relatively small. just a handful of staffs running the entire operation.

one of the reason i'm still thinking is not because of the job scope, it's not because of the salary, and it's not because of the distance from home (it's opposite Segi College). rather i'm still longing for the opportunity of working abroad. more importantly, i'm still longing to be with you.

though things will work out it's course if we have the determination. somehow, i'm still hesitating.

i've been talking and thinking bout working abroad since... can't remember when. even before 3rd year of degree started, i think. somehow, it hasn't materialize. hmm... maybe it's not the time yet.

sometimes life is funny and weird. it sets you up for a totally different experience even though you do not wish to feel that way. however much you try to avoid, it's just pushes you over the edge and making you take that fall. by then, you will struggle, testing how hard your arms could flap, utilizing whatever you have, just so that you won't fall so hard. if you are ignorant enough, you'll just be wipe out from the face of this earth. if you survive, there's another cliff, there's another stream waiting for you. the good thing is, it will make you stronger. it will make you more aware. noticing the edge of the cliff is nearby or witness it from far. you start to plan ahead, making sure you will be better off than the one the wind is pushing you towards it.

i just login to jobstreet, 4 applications have been turn down. malaysian are that bad in work performance as compare to singaporeans?

haihzz.. maybe i'll sleep on it, and answers will pop into my head.