Q&A

Question:


is it difficult to be assertive in most situations? what do you believe people are going to think of you when you act assertively for your own benefit?

Answer:


Being assertive is definitely going to be hard in most situations. And when we act assertively for own benefit, perception of people will always think otherwise, even though the objective could be entirely good from our part. i guess the first three letter of the word assertive says it all, not being entirely positive, and yet it manage to get the job done most of the time

will i get expel for this??

guidance

i stumble upon a post, and it reminds me of the past. sometimes i wonder and at times seems worrying? i don't know. why should i give a damn...

writing chapter XXX on a fresh piece of paper wasn't easy. as i don't know where to start. everything seems blurry even though it's just a blank piece of paper waiting for me to write something on it. at times the reflection of paper seems like a bright light persistently sucking me into it.

things happened so fast... i think i'm still lagging behind in lap 2, whereas everyone is moving forward and bout to finish the race. i hate to be on the losing side, anyway, who does...? but that's life, and i admit defeat.

i do not dare to fall, as i have not learn how to accept myself. as i have, i'm not prepare to get hurt... yet. or maybe this will turn out just fine. who knows? no one... even god.

i'm in the midst of crossroads. so many doors that are equally tempting for me to explore. i don't know which to take. emotionally, i'm just a total mess up. and it's affecting my thoughts. seriously.

i do believe in god. and if there's really one out there. please guide me through this horrendous process, i don't wish to suffer, as i know life is not bout suffering. i just need a breakthrough. to really discover who am i... what i'm capable of... for a start.

just what are you testing me for what i'm going through at this very moment.

cutest mom contest entry

mom: is that the who who who??

me: er.. who?

mom: *typical mom stare*

me: orh.. no la!! what makes you think so?!

mom: i thought...

me: cannot be, and it won't be. why ask?

mom: just concern bout you. fulfilling the mom's responsibility. can o not?

me: caaann... your so sweet.

mom: of cuz!!

me: since i'm single, can we just become couple.

mom: caaann... if i'm not married to your dad.

me: *doink* dad....!!!

equation

why.. why sometimes in life, when we want something so badly, and we never seems to get what we want. why we desperately need something, we just don't get it, even we wish upon the wishing stars. worst of all, we don't get it, even we work hard for it, and it just doesn't waltz through the grand hall way.

i understand that certain things will not drop on our lap, even though we pray to Santa every night before heading to bed. but wanting something badly PLUS working hard for it, EQUALS to you don't get what you want. the equation just sucks bad time.

on a random note, had a conversation with my mom.

'boy, why are the guys carrying the gals handbag?'

'cuz they are gentleman..?'

'no no no... you call that gentleman?'

'if not? i think the couple is showing affection'

'affection?? ya rite? more like possession.

=.='''

sometimes my mom just...

NS!!! damn 7 slow. .!!

i'm in a CC near my house. stupid connection at home couldn't be access. TMD!! it's been 2 days! i think mom didnt' pay the bill. either way, i'll check it out tmr!

everytime the connection also got problem when i got urgent matter to do. for your info, i have not print my exam docket for malaysian studies paper. thought i could get it from registry today, but the admin staff told me to check my mail again. damn!! can't she just freaking print the exam docket for me?!?! so damn 7 ma fan meh?!

i've been waiting 20 mins for the freaking file to be download aili send to me. mind you, it's just 23KB. and it is taking forever to download into the freaking computer. 'what 7' kinda CC is this?!?! is sl0wer, much slower than dial-up connection.

realize i curse alot?! i think i got affected by a bunch of kids behind me Dota-ing. they curse like nobody business. so hence the tendency to curse as well. plus the frustration that is occurring. grrr....

fark!! 30 mins ledi, and it's not f***ing moving!! WTH!! i doubt this entry will be uploaded into my blog. if it does, good la. if not, i think i'll go crazy.

it's 1.45a.m. i want to sleep!! and i'm still waitin for the god damn file to be downloaded.

tat's it, i'm going back. nitez peeps.