looking at the pictures. seeing them hugging together. taking photos from different places. i'm so jealous. i'm angry. at the same time, deep down inside, i feel serene. yea... is so contradicting, i know. maybe... i don't know what to feel anymore. maybe... i'm finally able to let go. they say; time will tell, and time will heal. i think i have given myself enough time. i don't know whether it is fully heal, neither do i know that time has given me indication of what i need to know. but i know that by dwelling in the past, it's not gonna take me anywhere, neither it will heal my wounds. by plugging myself into misery, is not that she knows what i'm feeling. is not that she is gonna give a fuck of what i'm going thru. hell, she didn't even bother to give a damn at the first place. she knows shit of what i'm have gone thru, and going thru.
i just realize something. why do people are afraid of changes? that what they always say rite? well, i'm gonna disagree with that statement a lil. i think people change all the time, because they want what's best and beneficial to themselves. that is why they move forward, searching for new territory, adventuring into new possiblities. at the end of the day, they want to be happy of what they have. the satisfaction feeling of obtaining their objective would overrule every possible feeling there is in this universe. in a more simpler term, imagine you have been craving for ice-creams for 10 years, (probably you have been stucked in some hutan for that long period of time) and you finally reach a stall that sell ice-creams. that feeling is just... MUAX!
but when a person changes. the first thing people would say. 'hey, you have changed. who are you anyway? you're not the person taht i first knew.' well, i think is not all bad. in fact, there's nothing wrong with it. unless that person changes into a bloody rapist, or some murderer. just because you have not change, doesn't mean i'm a bad person. is just that our perception on certain things have change. or they always say; different channel or different radio station. get the ball?
so, yea... i didn't want it to be all emo entry. so, yea... something for you to pounder on maybe.
kalau tak faham, nevermind. i wrote it just to re-organize my thoughts.
have a nice day. =)
4 comments:
ppl are afraid of changes because changes are painful.. is not easy to change as ppl are always comfortable in their comfort zone.. if can they wont change..
But i agree that ppl do change for things that benefits themselves..
well is always up to all of us whether we wan to change or not.. hehe ^^
sudah nampak, faham dalam hati... jangan susah hati, masa adalah pengubatan yang paling berkesan...
hahahah...funny la u kelsen. but anyway...i agree wit u kelsen ^^ Stay strong my fren ;)
kelsen, if rhymes wei. not bad, not bad. lolz.. thx alot u guys. wat great frens u r. @.-
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