my commemorative speech

due to 'enormous' requests, i've decided to post my speech... lolz..
enjoy ya.. i hope *finger cross* hehe

I would like to commemorate a person whom I’ve known for a long time. Ever since he is a young kid, adults around him would disallow whatever things he wished to do. Things like climbing up the stairs, to joining the kids in the playground during the evenings. Usually the answer is a straight ‘no’. This is probably he was the only child.

The distance between his parents and himself were drawn further apart. This is because his parents were constantly working. There’s no one at home, besides grandma. Most of the time, he would be alone, either watching television or playing with his own toys.

His parents weren’t the best communicator in the world. His dad is a very quiet person; he will let his wife do the talking and scolding and his mom never listen. Deep inside, he knows what his parents’ good intentions were, but somehow he just had that feeling of irritation. Probably they weren’t there, when he needed them most. And the anger and frustration in him just couldn’t disperse in a snap of fingers.

He hated it when he is being nag, he hated it when he is being scold, and he hated it when he is always being proved wrong. Hence, he just distances himself from everyone, and bottling up everything.

During secondary he attended a boy school; he was a loner. Along came a boy who he thinks he could hang out together. He even joined his friends’ tuition centre, all just to mingle around with his friend. But one day, his best friend as he thought he was, betray him. And that causes him to bury deeper into his dark and quiet shell.

He wasn’t acing his subjects in school; neither was he making waves in the sport he loves most. He always hung his head low, slouching while walking along the corridors. His self-esteem is at his lowest. The only time he feels confident is during private training. He doesn’t have to compete with anyone but the thousands of shuttlecocks that were bombarded by his coach. He would run all over the court, hitting the shuttle as hard as possible,
stretching every muscle in the body. Sometimes, half way through the session, he would vomit. His face is as pale as snowflakes, legs and arms trembling, but he never complains, in fact he felt good, he was happy.

Like any other teenager, he had a couple of relationships. But none went well. Finally, he told himself that he should open up, and let someone fill up the emptiness in him. And his wish came true. He found someone that; as they often say, the other half that completes me. In fact, things went really well, for the first time after so many years, he thinks he has found happiness. The same happiness when he was in the court. Except, this was even better.

But things started to change, just 3 months after she went to overseas to further her education. The next thing he knows she told him she wants to call off the relationship. Reasons given? She found happiness there, and she’s thinking of getting a PR.

It was just like a heavyweight boxer landing the final blow on his opponent. He was totally knocked-out cold. I’m sorry… dead is a more appropriate word for it. You may come to think; come on man, just 6 months in a relationship, couldn’t be that bad. Believe me, I’ve question him exactly the same thing as well. I think he just couldn’t take it anymore.

If you are still wondering who this person is. He’s me.

Yes, my situation is not as bad as some who lost their love ones. But to me, losing a friend is like losing a part of me, let alone something that is precious to me. From the day I decide to move on, I have also decided to leave my mind, body and soul that have nothing but misery in my life at the graveyard of melancholy. Today I stand in front of you as a newborn person, just like a phoenix rising from the ashes once again; learning everything from zero, laying a pathway for greater things that lies ahead for me. For I know things will always get better the next time.

today woke up at 8, and i literally need to drag myself out of bed. i slept at 4am last nite. so u could imagine how groggy i was. there's a grp study organize by mandy freud in coll at 9. so must go. i've been so blur for the whole sem for psy 106, if i don't attend d 'intensive class', i think i need to see ms. Winnie d next sem, which i don't intend to. =)

i was really nervous for my final commemorative speech. i was feeling so unease the whole time i prepare the speech yester, don't know whether Mr. Carroll will approve not cuz he mention not to talk bout relatives and all. mine was worst, i talked bout myself, but i wanted to do something different. kinda weird rite, commemorate urself. ivy was teasing me the whole time in class, cuz she never see me so nervous for my previous speeches b4. =.=''

n wat's worst, i am the last speaker. do or die... i so wanted to pull out at the last min. since i know i oredi pass my subject. i was afraid they will laugh at me, i was afraid the lecturer will critisize me, and i was afraid of... i also dunno wat i'm afraid of la. zzzz....

i tink it turn out quite well, not as bad as i thought. at the end, got cheers and claps from everyone. probably they cheer n clap bcuz everythin is over, and they dun have to see the lecturer's face anymore but not my speech. lolz... who knows rite. doesn't matter. n thank god it's over. n i'm satisfy with what i did. hehe...

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mom called while i was sleeping, she said that v'll be eating out tonite. i said cool. it has been so long, that i can't even rmb when was the last time the whole family sat and have dinner TOGETHER. n share stories, and update each other a lil bout our lives. funny huh, we stay at the same roof, but we hardly gather together. everyone will be doin their own stuff.

anyway, i had loads of fun today. and i'm really happy that things turn out better than i expected.

gud nitez ppl...

p/s: if u want to see wat i wrote for my speech, i'll post it in the nex post, if not, forget it la... hoho...

women do cheat too

they always say men cheat on women due to women do not care for their men, and therefore they seek pleasure else where. other fact is probably the men is horny for younger women.
i came across an article saying reasons women cheat on men. and there are 10 of them!!

1) not enough sex.
2) being the bad girl
3) self-esteem
4) revenge/payback for past wrongs towards their partner
5) lack of intimacy
6) feeling neglected/ignored/under-appreciated
7) emotional withdrawal
8) bedroom boredom
9) exit strategy
10) revenge for cheating

if u can realise, 3-4 out of 10 r dealing with physical contact. so important huh..
n if u have any other suggestions, pls do leave a comment...

hehehe

recap

just a recap of what's happening to me for the past few days. don't bother to read, if ur not interested in my life happenings. =)

on saturday

went to coll as early as 9 am for colloquium. y so early? hmm.. ask my fren, michael. apparently want to finish early wor. good also la, can go back n sleep. cuz the previous nitez also din sleep much. nth much happen during colloquium except for a yr 2 senior who questioned the presenters bout their research methods.

yr 2 senior: y u didn't use pilot test?

presenter: cuz we... bla bla bla..

yr 2 senior: u shud hav use pilot test... bla bla bla

presenter: cuz we... bla bla bla.. (gettin pissed)

yr 2 senior: i understand, but u shud use pilot test, since.. bla bla...

d next grp comes in n present, n after the presentation.

same yr 2 senior: y u use pilot test in tis research?

presenter: cuz we want to compare... bla bla...

yr 2 senior: u shudn't hav use d pilot test, cuz.. bla bla...

presenter: but we want to.. bla bla.. (more calm than d previous presenter)

yr 2 senior: in my opinion, u shudn't use pilot test, bla bla...

if i were d presenter, i'll take my shoe n stuf it in his mouth. TMD!

after the judge has given comments, he's still talkin bout pilot test. all he likes pilot so muc... go study pilot la.. study psychology for wut.. =.=

after colloquium, finally get to go back zzzz.... at least for a couple of hours. less than 15 mins after dozing off, bro came rushing in remind me to send him to d court. less than half an hour, phone rang. walao...du lan... can't even reach stage 2 of my sleep.

went to 1U to meet up wit frenz after i drop my bro of d court in Pudu for his competition. had waffle for lunch. n d next program on d list, shopping. galz... anyway, i bought a pair of shoes for myself as well. wanting to get 1 for a long time, but didn't seems to find 1 tat suites my taste. hehe.. it cost 60 bucks. i think is still ok, cuz converse cuz bout 140 bucks. but aili n boon woei say is still expensive. i don't know how to shop la... next time take me along k..

bout 7pm, mike called. say he takde transport, so need to pick him up to go watch the liverpool match against newcastle at d roof top of 1U. the atmosphere not bad la, d only thing is the fans keep repeating the same songs over n over again. not other theme song meh. at 1 point, they chant their keeper's song, padahal, d keeper not doin anythin througout the match. unlike ManU rite, got 1 song for each player on the pitch. heh!!

atmosphere during the game

banners tat r hanged up to so the semangat.ness in them

some liverpool fans tat chicken out (at first) being interview by a BBC reporter.

good day for liverpool as they won 3-0 away to newcastle. but not so good for ManU as they lost 1-0 away to bolton. but they r still above liverpool. thats the main thing. hehe





on sunday.


teman my bro to the court for his competition the whole day. from morning till evening. tiring gile.. since i got nothing better to do. just teman lo. good brother rite. hehhe.. anyway, he lost in the quarter-finals in his singles, and got champ for his doubles event.







bro winning the double title with his partner
group pic for a chinese newspaper





after that went to meet up with frenz to makan dinner at ss2. bump into betsy, didn't expect to bump into anyone thou. terkejut aku.

(if u notice, is gettin more brief as i write. my semangat.ness is dropping, malas ledi) heh

anyway, went to get the cakes at secret recipe in TTDI, (still got 2 vouchers, finish it lo). suddenly my fren suggested v go 'small lil genting' in cheras. =.=''' i don't know y, but i comply to it. had fun there, cuz they were asking bout kinky stuff, and telling lame horny jokes and also observing a young couple reacting to each other. damn funny.



gah!! malas ledi... until then, i'll continue next time la k...


have a good day!

22 april - 13 nov

22 april - 13 nov. this is the period i will always rmb. it has brought so many sweet memories that are to be treasured, bitter notes to be reflect on. this is the period i would rmb for a long time, as it has bring significance meaning into my life, and along the way change who am i as a person. i wanna thank god whom shed light towards a wonderful person that has lid up my life, givin me the chance to learn so much from this person, as a friend, a companion, a partner, a lover and as well as a teacher. through this period of time, i've learn so much in life.

it is sad, for i couldn't learn and share anymore with this person; even i long for it not to end. the period of that chapter have been close; even i long for it not to be close. as much as it hurts, i need to let go; even i long for it not to let go. i need to move on with my life, as it wasn't meant to be. it takes courage and effort. on the other hand, it takes even greater courage for the other party to do so. and for that, i salute.

promises that has been made, are yet to be fulfill. promises that says we'll stuck with each other no matter what.. promises that says i'll be there for u... all these are yet to be fulfill...

there's nothing to be blame, there's nothing i could do. there's no more strength in me of lifting my finger swearing at as to why god treat me this way.

i don't know what the future lies ahead of me, as it is still greyish to me now... as we cannot foresee the future. but i know what i want, and i know He will allign something great for me. for i am grateful for things that happened, and will happen to me.


therefore, i hope god bless this person along the way, and guide this person thru the journey that lies ahead. amen...