last emo post

y do i need to be so angry?
y do i need to be so disappointed?
y do i need to be so moody?
y do i need to care so much?
y do i need to hurt myself?
y do i need to cut myself to see how much i bleed?

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y can't i be happy?
y can't i be joyful?
y can't i change things?
y can't i ever fixed things?
y can't i be patient?
y can't i believe in myself?
y can't i believe in faith?
y can't i change for the better?


aarrhhh... i'm goin nuts!!
i need to stop thinking so much. and just set out what i'm suppose to do. go with the flow... and let nature take it's own course. first of all, i think i need to start treating myself better. i've been punishing my body and mind for the past 1 and a half months. and i realize is not helping at all. i can't control what's out of my boundaries, sometimes i need to accept that certain things is out of my control, no matter how hard u try to turn things around. at least i know, i've gave my all. and all i can do is control myself.

all thanks to U, i've grown stronger. and all thanks to U, i'm begining to push myself further. and all thanks to U, i know what i want in life.

yea... i've realise i've been emo-ing alot. i think tis would be my last emo post for the year. =)


'What you think, and what you feel, and what manifest, is always a match' quote from unknown author

p/s: i didnt cut myself. just an expression. althou i did try hurtin myself unintentionally. n it bleed... =.=''' accident