jerking

...is not fun. it makes you wanna puke. at the back of your mind, you know where you will be heading. However, the stop and go makes you want to abandon the journey itself.

no fun... no fun.

is there such things like...

you don't know something. and you don't have something.

between the both, how do you identify which is which.

take for example. say you have RM10K in your account. at the same time, you don't know bout it, but people is telling you have it.

is just like when people tell you, you are more than what you are. seriously, whenever you look in the mirror, you see you. what is hard to be reflected is the fact what you don't see in yourself. on the other hand, you could feel it.

i can feel it. and it's growing.

should or should not

have been very fickle minded of whether i should change my job. change of working environment. been telling some of the close ones what my thoughts are. and by laying down my thoughts, i thought that i would be able to figure out something. or least have a clearer picture. not in this case though.

i thought to myself, it couldn't be a good thing if you gave too much thoughts and spending much energy dwelling of might be the scenarios if i leave or stay. on the other hand, it wouldn't harm given that extra thought. just in case ma...

i'm stuck.. good nitez