there are many things i tried explaining, and no one seems to understand it. there are certain believes i adopt that may not to anyones liking. i don't know whether things will turn out what i intended to be. i keep my fingers crossed, and never stop trying. this is the only thing i know. don't break the only thing i know how to do. give me a better solution, a different solution. i lack of trust and believes. and possibly that's why i am where i am today. screwed up. i don't intend to fix it. i just want things to get better from now on.