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contentment

does life meant to be a struggle?

some say yes...

some say no...

so how ar? i also don't know.

i'm been fortunate enough that i don't really suffer, and i usual get what i want in life. it may be simple things. though sometimes i wish i have a Ferrari, or a condo in the heart of the city that costs 2 million. nevertheless, those are just wish list. having said that, so what if you have all those things? ain't life still the same? you may be eating a more expensive food (over-rated), drink nice wine (die faster), drive fast car (higher chance of dying) okok... it may not neccessary happen.

see the point. people will just give a thousand reason that the Ferrari is a lousy car. ultimately, probably are just envious they couldn't touch it.

on the other hand, do you need to drive Ferrari to survive? do you need 3 servants to take care of each of your children? do you need 8 bodyguards following you around? ma fan~

i came across a phrase; contentment is a mind of desireless and inactivity.

it just seems contradicting to our modern society of thriving for success, going for the 'good' things in life. come to think of it, what are the good things in life? coming back to the question; is it bigger house? fancier watch? LV? bird nest for breakfast? for crying out loud, most of the things come from china. and probably made by a labourer who earns peanuts and may not have the skill.

so, who's to judge if those are good things in life? we're just being sold that society needs this to achieve such status.

oh well, if you realize.. i'm probably not so content bout my life right now. see the amount of complains. each and everyone of us are far from achieving contentment in life. yea.. i'm just bringing everyone in to join the bandwagon. haha..

primary gathering

today had a gathering with fellow primary classmates. everyone seems to be 'bigger' than last time.

first thing our former class teacher did after she sat down. 'what ya doing now?', 'are you attached?' 'when are you getting married?' 3 standard questions to everyone of us. it's the same like last time, bout... 6 years ago? only then, she didn't insert 'when are you getting married?' question.

i was rather quiet today. doing natural observation (trying to imply what i've learn as much as i can after leaving uni) hoho

report: everyone seems the same. not much changes. those pretty back in primary, remains the same. those bigger size than normal, still remains the same. those quiet, still remains the same. haven't seen those who have drastic changes, maybe they didn't turn up. or maybe everyone is just trying to go back to how it seems to be like when you're 12. kiddy and naive.

sounded like i'm damn old.

anyway, a few are getting married this year, 1 or 2 already married a couple of years ago. some are venturing into business, and 1 wants to go back to school. others are still single and available (mostly are gals).

hmm~ i don't know how to end this. i think pretty soon pictures will be up in facebook.

oh... 1 last thing, gathering seems kinda fun la. you get to see the growth how a person change over a period of time. k la, don't want to throw in psychology whatnot terms in here.

ooo~~ start work ledi

i think i made a very good impression today.

first day of work... and i was late for 25 minutes. anyone wanna salute me?

*shakes head* *no eye see*

traffic was horrible. and i didn't expect it to be that bad. drive motorcycle also stuck in between the cars. tomorrow need to get up even earlier.

is the part where work suck even before work starts. woot~~ it rhymes, kinda.

as i was saying, upon reaching office, i barely caught my breath as i was sitting down. boss throw me a project to handle. i stone there for couple of minutes while he explained the details. he stop abruptly, 'you don't have to take down the details?'. i scramble for pen and paper, and was handled to me by his partner gleefully.

that was the highlight of my first day in work.

end of story.

you can close this window, and do your stuff.

=)

crossroads

i think i've blogged this before. anyway, i'm in the middle of crossroads again. it's nothing new. we all face it all the time. making a decision, hoping that it's the right one. weighing the consequences, hoping that it seems fair to every party.

i'm being offer a job, seems alrite. i don't know about the potential of the company, as it's still rather new and relatively small. just a handful of staffs running the entire operation.

one of the reason i'm still thinking is not because of the job scope, it's not because of the salary, and it's not because of the distance from home (it's opposite Segi College). rather i'm still longing for the opportunity of working abroad. more importantly, i'm still longing to be with you.

though things will work out it's course if we have the determination. somehow, i'm still hesitating.

i've been talking and thinking bout working abroad since... can't remember when. even before 3rd year of degree started, i think. somehow, it hasn't materialize. hmm... maybe it's not the time yet.

sometimes life is funny and weird. it sets you up for a totally different experience even though you do not wish to feel that way. however much you try to avoid, it's just pushes you over the edge and making you take that fall. by then, you will struggle, testing how hard your arms could flap, utilizing whatever you have, just so that you won't fall so hard. if you are ignorant enough, you'll just be wipe out from the face of this earth. if you survive, there's another cliff, there's another stream waiting for you. the good thing is, it will make you stronger. it will make you more aware. noticing the edge of the cliff is nearby or witness it from far. you start to plan ahead, making sure you will be better off than the one the wind is pushing you towards it.

i just login to jobstreet, 4 applications have been turn down. malaysian are that bad in work performance as compare to singaporeans?

haihzz.. maybe i'll sleep on it, and answers will pop into my head.

thesis meh

4000 characters...

seriously... my thesis is over you know...

i only manage to write one eighth saje... =/

it's either i don't know what are my qualities are, or i just don't know what to talk bout my qualities.

haha... sounds the same. ----> blame thesis for encouraging us to crap.

first post of the year*

new year, new beginning?

hmm...

i'll just start with where i've left off and make it even better and greater.

as for those not so good events, and wanting to forget,

let's just close the chapter.

easier said than done.

i'll try...

resolutions??

i'm still working on it...

what's my plan?

KROW

spell backwards pls

i got a couple of calls actually.

let's hope that i get what i want.

lastly...

Happy New Year everyone. let's make this year better than the previous

the previous

the previous

the previous

years

=)