ramblings

there are many things i tried explaining, and no one seems to understand it. there are certain believes i adopt that may not to anyones liking. i don't know whether things will turn out what i intended to be. i keep my fingers crossed, and never stop trying. this is the only thing i know. don't break the only thing i know how to do. give me a better solution, a different solution. i lack of trust and believes. and possibly that's why i am where i am today. screwed up. i don't intend to fix it. i just want things to get better from now on.

Break

I still need/want a break.

Wanted to submit my leave application form, but suddenly got projects came in. Sigh

er.. title-less it is

i've been blog hopping, reading a lil bit here and there. mostly looking at pictures really. more importantly, i take a look at myself, and people around me. it's not that i've been expose to many. however, just my one cent thoughts i have.

here goes...

it's really easy, i mean really really easy to miss out on things. not just exciting things. i'm talking bout small lil things that may not be significant at first glance, IF you're moving such pace. i always thought that i take things easy. however, someone pointed out to me, i jump into things very quickly. assumptions, always wanting to be first, getting ahead, making sure that the person next to you is 2 steps behind you. could i just blame that i'm being trained that way? coughbadmintoncough.

having said that, really it's those small lil things that actually accounted for making it a successful thing in your barometer of good stuff. hmm... wonder where did that just came from.

bottom line. enjoy the moment. [i'll try la k]

yay~~! i just blogged after quite awhile. woohoo.. super happy. jumps around* *moon walk*

that's a bit too extrem of optimism. hehe

dinner time.

and not forgetting, happy birthday Jian. may you have a bless and wonderful 18th year. =D

random no. XX2

things may not turn out what we expect. as much as we want it, persistence may never struck much sense to it, when you don't get the things you want.

ultimately, it may not be the things you need. why frown, just make the best out of every situation. it solely depends on individuals of how we look at it. be content may be the word that is ringing in the head.

but to quench the satisfaction thirst is never easy. that's why we have survive as long as time have recorded. so much so evolving over time.

PHD

whoa.. since when...? my friend link me to his blog. PHD in BS?? lolz

saturday

this is one of the Saturdays i would chilled at home, cranked up my laptop and watch House. Just came back from breakfast with the mom and bro (youngest).

things have been really really mundane and routine. now that 'the gal' is sorta working under the same roof as i am, and the bro (youngest) came on board for a couple of days... besides work, and food... and watching series... life has been pretty much... okay..

i was term as being not adventurous. i begged to differ. i honestly feel i can do both. and how could you be outgoing, when every time some things just don't work out, or there is a last min changes. what can you do?? agenda push it forward lo..

how could you do something, when the smiley face is always at monotonous or tuned down..? do we have to always let the environment to conquer how we felt, and what we should feel? sometimes. but not all the time.

surely things will be great, if we have everything under our control. we feel powerful. the dark side of this emotion..? we tend to seek for more. that's where the thrill is. we humans have been programmed to seek for something better. it's in our genes. from living in the caves to living between concrete walls. we have advance quite a fair bit. some analyses have said that human growth and spurt of advancement have increase in a tremendous pace in the last century. the fastest ever since the beginning of time.

what could be more after this...? flying cars?teleports? ability to survive without food?

*ran to toilet*

train of thoughts...broken*

well, i think we have a handful of stuff on our plate, i say let the advancement of the human race to those constantly trying to change the world and improve this planet. and we sit back and handle our own matters, embrace and experience it as it comes..

happy saturday

unexpected journey

When Christopher Columbus first set sail, he did not expect to 'found' America. Life is a journey of twists and turns. Even on a race course,where it's been designated, drivers sometimes do end up on the brick walls.

Embrace it, and let it take you on an exciting ride. When people say you need to completely take charge of your life. It's just half truth in it. Knowing what to do, and mapping your course in life is important. What's more imperative is be flexible in your approach, you never know where it will take you.

phase

i wish things would be better.

and i wish things could be better.

it's just a phase...

and it shall pass.

good things never last forever,

so as bad.

the darkest hours,

are just before the break of dawn.

don't frown because your chips are down,

smile because is an experience gain.

it

After a while..


you don't know whether you're getting good at it, or you're just not up for it.

pariah hilton

You know when you get to attend parties, social events? everyone seems to dress up, have fun, enjoying the food, booze. cuci mata abit and hopefully get lucky before the lights turn out?




socialite like Paris Hilton?



enjoy sumptuous food that you don't need to fork out a single cent.



drink till there's no tomorrow, while waking up to a person that you hardly remember his/her name.

I don't know bout you, but i don't really like this, especially dinners. specifically buffet dinners.
i have alot of this. i wouldn't hate it, it's just part of the job. i would prefer to chill at home, or yum cha with a few friends.

am i whinning? no. am i showing off? no. am i complaining? maybe a lil. i guess i just want to finish my drama of House season 5.

M or H

Money or Happiness...

Choose one...

Sometimes i wonder is it really that hard to stick to one. Truth is, it's hard. It's not complex math or a chicken and egg thing. 'Content' would be a key word in between this 2 words that utterly have cause many disharmony. The constant struggle to strive for these ultimate 'thing', can cause a few added strands of white hair. We try to ignore... go with the flow... many other ways. Yet..

Fact is.. it's like that lah.. i also don't know what is the fact.

random thoughts... begin

it's so hard to pen down my thoughts these days. it's like a flip switch, "click" "click" "click"... or a hour glass, grains of sand flowing through that tiny pipe. each grain of sand represents a thought, and as it flows down that chimney, it's hard to keep track of as it reaches the bottom of the base. Accumulated, non-organize, scattered...

as i was going down the newsfeed of facebook. i saw an album, in that picture, there were a group of people. and i know most of them, wouldn't say we are close, just hi-bye friends. at one period of time, i was pretty close with some of them. i wonder what it takes to build that bond?

scrolling down... same for another group of friends. just hi-bye friends, used to sit in the same class room, side by side... looking at each other's answers during examination. apart from that, i wonder how did they went through those thick and thin periods.

envy? yea.. definitely.

mom used to tell me; 'you don't need many friends. a few good ones will do. as time goes by, the group will get smaller, everyone will be preoccupy with stuffs and family.' true enough.

well, i never really categorize my friends, as in 'your my buddy, your my best friend, your my no so close friend, hello hi-bye friends, bye bye hi-bye friends...' i'm glad and happy that some call me as their best friend, buddy... it's my honor to cross path with you.

sometimes.. i don't know how to categorize all these. what is a definition of a 'best friend'? a person whom you share everything, every single little nitty gritty stuff.

random thoughts... end

I would like to post more often than i wish to. But no ideas of what to put it up...

till then...

Stay Alive

places to visit

i want a holiday. for the last 7 months, i only took 1 day off. And that also because of something urgent. it's quite amazing for the fact i'm such a lazy person





experience awesome sunset in Bali






seeing how fast is the pace of Toyko





taking long walks on a countryside in UK




enjoying the slow pace in Perth




Swinging from building to next building in New York



But all these things... need ka-ching.

no money how to go lah.

If 'time' doesn't fit into the equation, the question of 'how long' will just be a variable in this equation.

rain rain go away

i find this quite amusing. made some comments.

1) lady is afraid of water, scare will drown (then again, why did she crossed the road)

2) lady is desperate for man in uniform to save her life (ah moi you look quite ok wut)

3) lady is afraid dolphin from Sentosa island will bite her pedicure

4) man in uniform got nothing to do, too excited going around street saving helpless citizen

5) man in uniform receive a call from her?

6) lady is too ****, (just turn around and walk back where you came from lah)

6 months

*blink blink*

6 months in work force... wonder how many more years to come. will continue counting when it reach 31st Dec.

time flies...

Besty~~~

can you sing 'Slow Down~~' for me??

good enough

i was chatting with a friend today, was told/ask that she doesn't treat her partner good enough.

got me thinking a lil while bathing just now. maybe it's just AHA moments. Anyway,
my 2 cents/ AHA moments would be; there's no such thing as good enough.this is just a perception on what others see upon us, or maybe us who lay their eyes of where the bar should be. But of cause, we don't expect people or you treating others like shit, and was told to **** off. seriously, in my opinion, there's no such thing as good enough, only the best you coul contribute, in your own capacity. i have friends pack lunch boxes for her bf, and i also have friends whom their partner never hold their hands in 3 years of their relationship.

when a person start constantly saying, 'can't you see i'm doing this for you, i'm sacrificing alot for you.' well, in economics term; when demand does not meet supply, the cycle just breaks off. kaboom. seriously, no point being in cycle when there's no constant flow in the loop.

AHA moment gone, overpowered by hunger. food needs to be inserted to heal the soul.

cheerios

women's right

many do not realize, but women are getting more and more power. be it in the corporate companies or at home. we constantly hear pageant whom just won the title of Miss whatever competition they have join, they would be shouting just 3 things. world peace, help the poor and fight for woman's rights. *yawn*

as i said, many don't realize that, men balls shrink by the day. their bravery of going out for battles to fight for the country will no longer be seen as brave, it will be seen as stupidity. dying for your country is not an honor anymore. husbands buying food in the middle of the night, just to satisfy their wife's cravings. bfs allocate their job just to be with their gfs, etc.

i'm not generalizing. however, you could see around that men will do anything for their women. as it always have been. men will pour their heart and soul to do whatever the woman tells them to. wars torn nations apart just because 2 kings fight over a princess.

in actual fact, many women out there are really really powerful. they literally hold their men's ____, so much so the man will just nod their head to whatever request was spilled by the woman.

and YET, women want to fight for equal rights. whereas, they have complete control over men. this point, i just can't understand.

dosage

i need a huge dose of inspiration, motivation, and purpose to move forward

something heavy

I sometimes think that acting cute when you're originally do not fall under the cute looking caategory, is a big turn off. Or rather, that's how I think.

Also, trying to act pity... to gain attention

again, it's subjected to individual's perception

fun time

it was a night to be remember, as it could very well be the last gathering. the laughter and screeching pitch of tone that shakes and move the neighborhood. i guess they won't mind one bit, as it's purely filled with joy. the uncle down the road might just grinned and reminisced his time back in college.

moving forward, each and everyone will go on with their lives. some have goals and dreams to chase after, and some have life purpose to lead the way, and some have destiny to be fulfilled. anyhow, it's the moments that we cherish each other presence more important than the meet up for the sake of it that counts.

no doubt it's one of those nights that everyone are relieve ( most of us were), and enjoy each other companion.

no doubt that 3 years isn't very long. nevertheless, it's where the foundation of friendship starts. it's where real long lasting relation is bound.

no doubt, if you were here with us, i'm sure it will be much more lively. miss those times when we were together with the gang (secretly and openly).

save 1 space for you by my side

tribute to boss

after 4 months of working. i find my boss quite intriguing in a sense that the qualities he has, at times you take a closer look, it just... can't find a word for it.

he has such composure, though he will blast you (if it's your fault) or he hits a bump. he almost always will get things done. the amount of time lapse to come up with a solution is astonishing. he's very good at analyzing (typical accountant), the way he observes situations, human behavior... i wouldn't say i'm a psych graduand. guess experience comes with it.

i think he is mystery kinda person. me and my colleague were saying that he is a spy from CIA, singapore department. fetching information back to his country. well, you couldn't pass out the possibility of it. as singapore is doing better than us. and the amount of business singaporeans are expanding here in this country is quite scary.

nevertheless, he is really a nice person. and one heck of a boss.

lately has just been work and no play for me. sigh. i don't like this.

people have been saying i'm fat. i blame it on stress. maybe i shouldn't eat that much. always tell myself, need to exercise la, do some sit-ups, kill some fats. never work. suppose to go futsal on thursday, end up in some event host and co host by Coach and Alliance bank.

funny, i would rather go futsal than mingle around with people carrying Coach bags, LV wallets, and Dunhill tuxedo. is sports really fuse in my bloodstream. i can only wonder.

moving along, had an interesting topic with my boss that day. a person taste will change/increase/differ parallel with your income. to some extend, i think it's pretty true. why settle for something less, when you can very well afford it. my question is, do you really need a whole collection of it. it's a norm thing, when salary or environment permits, humans will always wants more. every human is being innate 'greed' somewhere along the line in their DNA.

we could put it in a way that, we are target oriented humans, we strive for something better, and that's how humans have evolve since beginning of time. optimistic? or self consoling?

this whole post is rather scatter all over the place... many things running through my mind. it's been a while though.

3 types again

My boss told me that there are three kinds of people in this world. this categorization adds on to the list that people segregate humans into different sections.

good and bad; black and white and brown... and the list goes on.

what he shares with me over lunch, seems and sounds true la.

he categorize humans into 3 types. intelligent; hardworking; lucky

in working life, there only exist 3 types of people. the above 3. if you see, those top management, they are either 1 of them, or a mixture of this and that. the dean in my (ex) department where i used to study, is super smart. my big boss is damn hardworking. god knows how many hours he puts in, as far as i know, it's alot. lucky... you wouldn't believe, but some employee are really that lucky. they rise to the top of corporate ladder in lightning speed. 10 years, and he/she is a managing director, or CEO of a big company.

as for me... i'm still thinking where i fit in. is there option D?

working life

work is piling, hours are getting longer, and i'm getting phone calls from my boss at 10, 11pm these days.

when la this project can end?? i never thought this could be that tough when i first started working. oh my...

got a whole lot to write just now, but went to de-stress. forgot everything ledi. bah.

till then, next time laaa

sweet dreams

i shit also no time, you want me to do this

could one is focus on doing solely on one thing, and one particular thing only, that they don't have time for any other things? be it to shit or eat or even brush their teeth.

i always hear ppl say; 'i shit also no time, you want me to do this?' ( i sometimes use this too, if i don't feel like doing it). sadly, most of the time, when they said it, next moment you bump into them in shopping complexes, facebooking, or doing whateva they are not suppose to do, or rather least important as compare to what they suppose to be doing.

oh well, we are humans. and there are always margin for us making mistakes. what i'm trying to say is... just be frank lah. don't have to give so many redundant excuses.

singapore => KL

currently in Singapore, will be back to KL in a couple of hours time.

must say, i have lots of fun. good laughs, great companion, good food.

in the end, something to look forward.

neither here nor there

opportunities have been popping up here and there. at times, it seems good. other times, it leaves you too much options, you don't know which to pick. they say; go with your heart. whenever i trust it... things turn out not the way i expected. it's funny when we always think that the grass is always greener the other side of the fence. i've been asking alot of questions lately, i think i irritate those people around me. i don't want to make a mistake that i couldn't afford to. i wouldn't say i made alot of mistakes, but the mistakes that i have made, it's sufficient to last me a couple of years. some of those mistakes i realize, i still repeat. afterall, i'm still human. some say, especially the teachers, would usually say; "don't make the same mistakes again". i can tell you it is very hard to succeed. not to say you can't, but it's just very hard. i've been making so many mistakes, sometime a wise decision could just turn into some shitty ones. "it's okay to make mistakes. learn from it, and don't make the same ones" easier said that done. we tend to fall back to the same thing over and over again. old habit dies hard. the desire it's just not strong enough. "go with the flow", is a common thing we all hear. sometimes... in fact, most of the time, going with the flow will lead you to some place you never thought of ended up with. then we will console ourselves; "this is gods will, He wants to test us". how ironic. at least, this is the humor side of it. 'positive thinking'... so to speak. on the other hand, strong minded person knows where they want to go. determine as ever, heaps of confidence, crystal clear in their mind that they will never settle for anything less than what they have set for. we have heard stories about these extraordinary humans defying all odds to achieve what they have set. these people tells stories that move souls and lift spirits. and we all want to be part of it. fact is, how many of us are as determine as these inhuman. sometimes i think these are angels that have been sent down from heavens to inspire. give us hope. as hope feeds the soul to make one body vessel to take one more step forward. to acknowledge there is still light at the end of the tunnel. before we step into that frame of mind, we need to know what we can/ can't do. what is within the capabilities. "we can do anything", one guy shouted at the back of the room. "i'm just being realistic, boy." there are so many things we can do in this world, that every single person experience different things in their life time, and life times before this, and life times ahead of this. a wise person once said, "our body are just a tool that caters to the soul, as the soul carries a series of life time experiences". i think there is some truth it in. why do we do things that we can't understand, and consciously, we know we shouldn't be doing it. interesting. choices; i think it's a good thing to an extend, i have choices to go with. it's a situation where gives me liberty to make a decision that may very well shape my life. i'm not going to go with the flow, neither i'm determine to sculpt my life....

i just got my answer =)

back to msn

time flies when we are together, and crawls when we are apart.

i love spending time with you.

combo day

First of all, a big shout out to those celebrating Lunar New Year. Hope the 'harvest' is just as good as last year if not better. Those in business, be there more revenue, and profit. Those working, may promotion and increment pave the way to harmonious life. And wish everyone excellent health, great prosperity, and abundance of love.

speaking of love, i heard this is the only clashing between western calender of valentine, and eastern calender of chinese celebration in this millennium. don't you think it's quite cool.

i think we are a bunch of lucky fellas. able to witness some amazing things in our life time. the turn of the millennium, booming of computers, internet, tragic disaster like tsunami, eclipse that appears once every thousands of years, and... maybe you could chip in some.

anyway, talking bout love. hmm... a topic that melts a person's heart if written melodically, weakens the knees if words pierce through the skin, and shakes the soul when express sincerely.

so far, it's been a good period for both of us. the normal stuff that we any other couple that you bump in the street. just that, i think we gone through slightly more during this short period of time than any other couples. well, at least more than what i've been through.

i think i've been rather lucky to be involve in this one. i must say, it didn't expect to start out like how the cliche stories lines we see in movies. and it certainly didn't go well after a rocky start. many think it's bad fung shui, karma, or whatever they could come up with. the way i see it... i think it's working pretty well, and i learn an awful lot bout being in a relationship that i never even know.

starting one it's easy, maintaining one... it definitely involves hard work. sometimes we are kinda naive, as to think that relationship should be all lovey dovey. of course we could, and we must have. however, if we look at a different angle; running your own life is tough work, what else can you say if you put two souls together. ain't it be more tough?

aiks.. it's valentine, and new year. why am i getting all emotional and wordy. apologize for straying off a little.

have a great week ahead everyone,...

Happy New Year, and Happy Valentine's day. may everyone receives abundance of joy, abundance of wealth, and great health.

pushing the wrong buttons

as of late, i think i pissed off many people

i don't know what did i do actually in that spur moment. however, i will regret for the actions that i have take. words piercing through the heart, it's hard to just put a band aid or two across the wound just like that. scars will always remain.

just this morning, while driving to work. the usual.. jam all the way to work place. there's this car who wanted to cut to my lane, i couldn't break in time, and my car was in front of him. yet, he still insist of cutting to my lane, our rear mirror brush together, and i honk him along the way for his persistent. the next time i know, he bang his window so hard, i could hear it even my windows are close. his eyes ranging from anger, literally almost popping out. i swear he would run me down if he was driving a tank or lorry. serious.

maybe my action has cost him to go blow his top, after stressful times in the morning.

it's not entirely my fault lo. reasons:

1) he did not put his indicator. thinks that his grandfather road

2) it's my lane, in theory... and i got a choice to let him pass or not

3) i want to eliminate road bully. i was prepare to fight if he stops in front of my car. (cuz we almost the same size) lol

4) i want to get into youtube, just like the video taken in LDP. heee

having said that, from now onwards, i try to be nice~ full stop. i still got 75 years to live.

3 must

attended a talk yesterday, with the mom. it was quite an insight. i like to attend this speaker's talk, it's always light hearted, and.. as i said, insightful.

the speaker mentioned quite a few things that caught my attention, and made me reflect certain things that has and going to happen to me. and today, i'm just gonna talk bout 1 of the points that i could remember.

humans need to have 3 mus, otherwise we will die. some may have studied this in psychology. and in my faint memories, i think one of the lecturers in bpsych must have talked bout it. anyway, 3 must.

1st must. we must do something.

imagine, if we just sit down and staring at the milky way, or lie on bed all day doing nothing...everyday. we are no different than the body buried six feet under. hence, we need to find something to do. anything, at least it's something.

2nd must. we must do something we love.

doing something we enjoy/love is something... one can't explain to the next person that do not get what you're doing. to a destroyer of the environment, they could never get what the humanitarian effort in saving the planet they love. or something like that.

3rd must. we must have something we hope for.

this is kinda subjective. why? humans strive on things that bring them hope. a glimmer of hope would push beyond a human's capacity that they never could imagine. you could say, hope is what keeps us alive. whereas, hope is something that could ruined our life too, literally. as one hope that his/her children to get rid of an addiction. sometimes, it's just kinda hard. rationalization could immediately take place. but that is a whole new dimension that one should consider.

these are the 3 must one must have. if not, one may die. come to think of it. it does make a whole lot of sense. if you find something to LOVE to DO, and putting HOPE into it. as many that have found their passion, they claim that they never work a single day of their lives. all because they enjoy doing what they love, and hope it will blossom to something more.

-the end-

dialog

I miss you

Why do you miss me?

Because i've found everyone

contentment

does life meant to be a struggle?

some say yes...

some say no...

so how ar? i also don't know.

i'm been fortunate enough that i don't really suffer, and i usual get what i want in life. it may be simple things. though sometimes i wish i have a Ferrari, or a condo in the heart of the city that costs 2 million. nevertheless, those are just wish list. having said that, so what if you have all those things? ain't life still the same? you may be eating a more expensive food (over-rated), drink nice wine (die faster), drive fast car (higher chance of dying) okok... it may not neccessary happen.

see the point. people will just give a thousand reason that the Ferrari is a lousy car. ultimately, probably are just envious they couldn't touch it.

on the other hand, do you need to drive Ferrari to survive? do you need 3 servants to take care of each of your children? do you need 8 bodyguards following you around? ma fan~

i came across a phrase; contentment is a mind of desireless and inactivity.

it just seems contradicting to our modern society of thriving for success, going for the 'good' things in life. come to think of it, what are the good things in life? coming back to the question; is it bigger house? fancier watch? LV? bird nest for breakfast? for crying out loud, most of the things come from china. and probably made by a labourer who earns peanuts and may not have the skill.

so, who's to judge if those are good things in life? we're just being sold that society needs this to achieve such status.

oh well, if you realize.. i'm probably not so content bout my life right now. see the amount of complains. each and everyone of us are far from achieving contentment in life. yea.. i'm just bringing everyone in to join the bandwagon. haha..

primary gathering

today had a gathering with fellow primary classmates. everyone seems to be 'bigger' than last time.

first thing our former class teacher did after she sat down. 'what ya doing now?', 'are you attached?' 'when are you getting married?' 3 standard questions to everyone of us. it's the same like last time, bout... 6 years ago? only then, she didn't insert 'when are you getting married?' question.

i was rather quiet today. doing natural observation (trying to imply what i've learn as much as i can after leaving uni) hoho

report: everyone seems the same. not much changes. those pretty back in primary, remains the same. those bigger size than normal, still remains the same. those quiet, still remains the same. haven't seen those who have drastic changes, maybe they didn't turn up. or maybe everyone is just trying to go back to how it seems to be like when you're 12. kiddy and naive.

sounded like i'm damn old.

anyway, a few are getting married this year, 1 or 2 already married a couple of years ago. some are venturing into business, and 1 wants to go back to school. others are still single and available (mostly are gals).

hmm~ i don't know how to end this. i think pretty soon pictures will be up in facebook.

oh... 1 last thing, gathering seems kinda fun la. you get to see the growth how a person change over a period of time. k la, don't want to throw in psychology whatnot terms in here.

ooo~~ start work ledi

i think i made a very good impression today.

first day of work... and i was late for 25 minutes. anyone wanna salute me?

*shakes head* *no eye see*

traffic was horrible. and i didn't expect it to be that bad. drive motorcycle also stuck in between the cars. tomorrow need to get up even earlier.

is the part where work suck even before work starts. woot~~ it rhymes, kinda.

as i was saying, upon reaching office, i barely caught my breath as i was sitting down. boss throw me a project to handle. i stone there for couple of minutes while he explained the details. he stop abruptly, 'you don't have to take down the details?'. i scramble for pen and paper, and was handled to me by his partner gleefully.

that was the highlight of my first day in work.

end of story.

you can close this window, and do your stuff.

=)

crossroads

i think i've blogged this before. anyway, i'm in the middle of crossroads again. it's nothing new. we all face it all the time. making a decision, hoping that it's the right one. weighing the consequences, hoping that it seems fair to every party.

i'm being offer a job, seems alrite. i don't know about the potential of the company, as it's still rather new and relatively small. just a handful of staffs running the entire operation.

one of the reason i'm still thinking is not because of the job scope, it's not because of the salary, and it's not because of the distance from home (it's opposite Segi College). rather i'm still longing for the opportunity of working abroad. more importantly, i'm still longing to be with you.

though things will work out it's course if we have the determination. somehow, i'm still hesitating.

i've been talking and thinking bout working abroad since... can't remember when. even before 3rd year of degree started, i think. somehow, it hasn't materialize. hmm... maybe it's not the time yet.

sometimes life is funny and weird. it sets you up for a totally different experience even though you do not wish to feel that way. however much you try to avoid, it's just pushes you over the edge and making you take that fall. by then, you will struggle, testing how hard your arms could flap, utilizing whatever you have, just so that you won't fall so hard. if you are ignorant enough, you'll just be wipe out from the face of this earth. if you survive, there's another cliff, there's another stream waiting for you. the good thing is, it will make you stronger. it will make you more aware. noticing the edge of the cliff is nearby or witness it from far. you start to plan ahead, making sure you will be better off than the one the wind is pushing you towards it.

i just login to jobstreet, 4 applications have been turn down. malaysian are that bad in work performance as compare to singaporeans?

haihzz.. maybe i'll sleep on it, and answers will pop into my head.

thesis meh

4000 characters...

seriously... my thesis is over you know...

i only manage to write one eighth saje... =/

it's either i don't know what are my qualities are, or i just don't know what to talk bout my qualities.

haha... sounds the same. ----> blame thesis for encouraging us to crap.

first post of the year*

new year, new beginning?

hmm...

i'll just start with where i've left off and make it even better and greater.

as for those not so good events, and wanting to forget,

let's just close the chapter.

easier said than done.

i'll try...

resolutions??

i'm still working on it...

what's my plan?

KROW

spell backwards pls

i got a couple of calls actually.

let's hope that i get what i want.

lastly...

Happy New Year everyone. let's make this year better than the previous

the previous

the previous

the previous

years

=)