talk to me

generally, there are two types of people who talks to you.

• the ones like you

• the ones really like you

think think think ting ting ting ting

u know what happens when you got nothing better to do during the holidays?

U START TO THINK OF NONSENSE.

things that never occur in your mind, suddenly pops up like mushrooms, light bulbs start lighting everywhere. good or good? it depends... optimistically; you got break throughs, you have enlightened. pessimistically; you are just bored. either way, it doesn't matter.

there's a research done in the States, statistically is shows that more than 90% of the population DON'T THINK. 5% thinks THEY THINK. and only a hand full, REALLY THINK. George Bernard Shaw famous for his playwrights, music and politics involvement once said, "i only think one or twice a year, and i'm world famous". so, really, if you really think you're thinking? hmm... highly unlikely.

i would like to fall into the category of 'a hand full' in that particular research. but sadly, i'm far from it. at most, i THINK i'm in the category of 'thinks THEY THINK', at most. i would term it as; analyze situations and matters on hand. and never thinking.

once again, comes down to the question, do we really think? and what does thinking truly mean? to my understanding... it's the ability to entertain a brand new idea.

face value?

after all, people do care what others think. no matter how ignorant a person can be. i finally acknowledge this matter after... sometime. and yes, i could be a very ignorant person.

i've been labeled as 'cold blooded', i won't deny any of the accusation. and if 'ignorance is bliss' is anyhow true, i think i live up to it's 'status' to the fullest.

why do i act and react in such way? probably i'm not prepare to accept the fact, and running away is the best possible way; at that moment in time. ironically, i always tell others to face the fact, and approach each possible issue as optimistically as they could. on the other hand, i couldn't do so. all i could do now, it's just let out a sigh, and smile.

how stupidly i could be

roles

i was told to revaluate my role.

challenge is.. i don't know where to start. is not that i hold many roles. and i don't think i play many roles. the roles that i hold, is fairly insignificant. really.

"my son is chairperson of student council". "my daugther is the manager of the xyz hotel". "my dog is the leading pack of dog society".

sometimes the roles i play, seems to be rather petty as compare to others. and always, yea always, shy away from the responsibility to take charge. social context that have mold myself into this current state? or should i start selling myself how much i could offer to this community and society?

in chinese, there's a saying, (direct translation) 'blank talk'. and it's the easiest thing to do on earth. just talking and boast, without proving what you have to really offer. in other words, talk cock. just bull yourself through. there are people who play this particular 'role' exceptionally well.

come on, you need to give them credit for this. they could sell themselves even knowing they don't possess any of the qualities they bullshit about. how cool is that?

unleash the potential within

at times, it seems that you know so much, that i'll go all knees to worship and salute you. at times, it's just frustrating that you keep everything inside. i learn so much, every single time i hear you speak. nevertheless, i always regret that i never spend enough time with you.

you've pull me through the darkest and toughest times. and knowing you do it subtly makes it rather more impressive.

i hope i could do it more than you're doing, giving back more, sharing the things i know. however, knowing you, as selfish as always. things would take a long time.

having an impact and seeing others change for the better. it's something i could bear to see. it's something terrifying and fearful to the extend it sends shivers down my backbone. i don't know why... somehow, it's the pace that you're growing, it's just unbelievable.

3 words

Excite me pls...

300 posts

took me quite a while to reach this mile stone. =)

what can i sum up 3 years of blogging.

hmm... seems like i'm moving forward, seems like i'm backward.. seems like i'm still static.

Maslov once said, if you're not moving forward, you're moving backward.

so, where am i now?

thought it will be a long post? heh...

for the sake of updating

it's unusually odd waking up at this sorta hour wandering in the house, doing literally nothing. in actual fact, i try every possible way to go back to sleep.

i couldn't hear birds chirping. is it because of sunday? or it is because the of haze, its died of suffocation.

it's still quite dark outside. staring out the window, waiting for the newspaper delivery guy to throw in Sunday Star. but it's sunday, he too sleeps a lil later than usual.

neighbour's dog is barking. it barks at unusual hours... while everyone is watching 7-9pm drama shows in Astro. and sometimes wee hours in the morning.

coming back, the haze is so bad, my nasal pipe is dripping like crazy.

moving along... LOL. oh ya.. *light bulb*

what is the barometer for acceptance of a person's flaws?

hmm... answer (mine of cuz)

it all depends on the person who is accepting, if you love that person whole heartedly, it doesn't matter who they are, what they made of, how they gonna become. love is above all? debatable... in the end, you still could accept them. nevertheless, it could always change. as things are never static.

hmm... i don't know how to end this. oh well, just take it as commersial break lah, okayy... =)

comebacknexttime