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optimistic vs suppression

VS

optimistic

suppression

the opposite meaning of optimistic would be pessimistic.

have you try combining optimistic with suppression? two words, same plane, but different paradigm.

so, can being optimistic be consider as suppression? viewing a glass half full instead of half empty, is consider optimistic. however, not saying the glass is half full or empty, does it make the whole world of a difference? honestly, it's doesn't. at the moment, it could.

sometimes is not easy to be optimistic. always looking at the glass as half full, telling yourself that there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. it's somehow like telling yourself a lie. when you know you will walk out of darkness anytime soon. nevertheless, we live by lies all the time. which is not a good thing.

on the other hand, it's much easier to suppress. holding back everything; your anger, your opinion, your urge to whack that person's ass. 3 deep breaths is all you need. if you're really good, 1 will be sufficient. no need to think, don't have to waste energy.

ignoring the emotions and things happening around, pushing those thoughts into your deepest conscious. it's still in your body, you mind knows it, it's still in there. at least, we don't need to lie to ourselves.

in a nutshell, prefer being optimistic? or just suppress all your feelings and thoughts? well, it's always good to strike a balance for anything. in this case... you'll be the judge. =)


still around

status

does status mean anything?



to some of us, it means the whole world to them. to others...maybe not. in many parts of the world, status is a big thing, it refers to recognition, power, and class. the higher and/or important your status is, the greater power and recognition you would hold.

truth is, does it mean anything? in my opinion, i think is merely a scam. higher social status people have certain rights compare to other normal humans. they could hide awful deeds they have done, because they have the authority to ask their subordinates to cover their ass. why is it so? who created it?

it's our very own people. people who have serious conscious of their doing, and doesn't have guts to admit it.

opps..dropping to the political side just a wee bit too much. ain't it?

flipping over the other side of the coin. status, as mentioned is recognition. people want to do be recognize and appreciate for their effort they have put in. at the end of the day, a pat on the back, and a simple thank you makes a whole lot of difference in a person's mood.

disclaimer: the above, it's just purely my opinion. pls don't put me in jail. after all, it's a 'free' country

post 1

notice the frequent updates?

that's just indicate how bored i am...

but it's a good thing in a way, that it gives me ample of time to gather my thoughts. thoughts that has been lingering around. expect more wordy post from me soon. hopefully not too wordy.

it also gives me time to... do some soul searching. i know what i want, but just wanna reaffirm it, so that it's more vivid and i just wanna make sure it's right when the time comes. nevertheless, as they say, nothing is 100% certain in life until it happens there and then. so, still taking baby steps to get there.

friends have been saying i'm rather quiet. well, i'm not always and haven't been the noisiest lot. always been those back-up/assistant, adding salt and sugar to a lame joke, or just breaking a tension in an unusal way, which has displease many parties. =)

indeed, it may be affected by the factors stated above. or it's just one of my transition period. transform to what? well, don't know yet. will see.



still lingering around

and you think he's into you

just when you think you've learn everything from psychology about body language, tone pitch, meanings between those lines... doesn't mean you are right, and it could well be deceiving and be crooked by it.

many think of us as being able to read body language better than people who did not study psychology. fact is... we ain't much better than the rest. i'm generalizing, am i? =)

or is it just me, when i'm suppose to pay attention in class, padahal i was sleeping.

anyway, one thing for sure i've learned. signals sent could well be misinterpret, no matter how well you studied body language. even you've obtain PHD in body language.

sometimes.. wouldn't it better if we just ask the person outright, how he/she thinks or feels bout things. although we may feel stupid. after all, it's answer we want to quench the curiosity in us.

first impression doesn't really count

they say first impression tells everything bout a person. in a way, it's true to a certain extend. probably just a small fraction of it, at least to me.

i was never good in first impression meetings while meeting new people, associates and even pets. maybe i don't know what to say, or what to act that would blow the person off their ground. 'wow, i'm impressed! , 'oh my gawd *gasp* '... these are the words that i would never be able to hear during the first encounter with a new person.

if i ever did, i must be in a really good shape or top form. like really really really really really good.


anyway, if u have watched previous season of British Got Talent, there's this chap who blown everyone off with his performance. everyone attend the show did not even give him a chance, even the judges. his name... Paul Potts. fiy, he went on to win the competition and perform in front of the queen.

this year there's another contestant. at first glance, she's some kampung woman dress in a 60 year old dress. btw, she's 47. same thing, no one gave her chance, and just smirk the sight of it. however when she starts singing.... 1 word. WOW!!!! <<< click

second time

ooo... it's been 10 days since i last updated. time flies. really fast....

i did something silly/stupid... while re-formatting my computer (yea.. for the n times), i backed up my files into the external hard drive. guess what...

i overwrite my pictures from my hard drive without realizing it till... just now =/

second time ledi!! first time was me re-formatting my computer without knowing the pictures were inside.

'send to the pro la'.... cannot, i don't want to end up like edison chen. though the content of pictures are no where near explicit you may think.

i sumpah!

oh well, just have to live it ain't i. guess it's quite possible to 'erase' memories that we ought to keep.

nevertheless, to those kind-hearted souls whom your truly had the privilege to pictures with you and wish me to remember you 20 years from now (not that i'll forget you, scare memory decay psych term). do give me a copy of those photos taken ya.


thank you very much.

driving resume

organized a trip after finals. and my friend asked me to send a resume to be screen by her dad.


i don't know what to put to fulfill Mr. Lim's requirements la.

anyway, here goes. 5 years of driving experience. drove to Penang, J.B., Kuantan, Kedah, Genting, Malacca, and around Klang Valley of course.

anything, just ask Mr. Lim to call me la. Er.. on second thought, it would be best, if you gao dim him first. =)

p/s: let me know i get to drive his precious daughter away for a couple of days. =p



wahhh hahah thanks!!!

sorry ahh mafan u

i'll write the resume no worries

ur age might come in handy in this case woohoo

it'll help if u've driven to fraser's b4 too???
he's got something against driving up hilly mountains

HAHAH SORRY DARN MAFAN I KNOW!!

I BUY U ICECREAM OK TAHNK YOUUUUUUU



i can't imagine if his future bf wanna take her hand in marriage. nevertheless, i have super cute friends.