40 days

Just came back from Seremban. didnt really work.. as most of the shops were closed. apparently, the Sultan of Negeri Sembilan sudah 'jual telur itik masin' = passed away. the people in the state of NS need to mourn his death for 40 days. 40 freaking days!!

no disrespect to the former king, and his immediate family. but are the people suppose to cry and tears for 40 days? no clubbing for 40 days? and no sex for 40 days? no fun for 40 days...

but still 9 days short compare with the Emperor of China.

ish...what am i saying.. this is totally, absolutely nothing to do with me. i won't get caught for saying this 1 rite... *fingers cross*

*thinking*

if i passed away, my boss probably will give 40 bucks to 'finance' my coffin.


anyway... next stop, Ipoh, Perak... and maybe Penang.

happy holidays. ^^

over and over

the songs have been playing over and over in my laptop and in my head.

i'm still figuring out what its trying to say.

u know, sometimes we can figure out what we are feeling and thinking through a song. reading between the lines. we could some how search the meaning towards a person's feeling. it's like looking at an abstract painting and drawing out the painter's expression of feelings and thoughts.

i'm a feeler. adding thinking into the equation. you basically get a messy outcome. usually, a thinker and feeler does not get along well (according to a personality test).

my point?? i sometimes tend to complicate my own thoughts, always giving them extra 'touch', 'spice'. you could say i shiok sendiri. no!! i'm NOT fantasizing.


passage above was written 2 days ago.




i found my answers. =)

第一篇

不知要写些什么么东西

头脑一片空白

这将会是一片很乱的文章

步入就谈谈关于人生吧！

话体那么地宽。。。 什么都可以讲

有时候，我中知道我对人生中有一个目标

可是， 并不一定会拥有所梦想的。

有时候，知道面前就是你想要的东西或目标

可是，却不想去拥有。

为什么？？？

两个字

逃避

或许。。真的没有勇气的面对了。

从以前直到先在的我，依然没改变，

不能解决的问题，总会的逃避。

真的是一个化习惯。

这一年来，发生了好多事件，

有些事体验过，明明知道没有结果， 因然也会在尝试。

有些事没体验过，也真得很想得去体验。

而有些事很想会发生，闻也没问，见也没见到。

而有些事，根本没想到会发生，不出意料。。 根本没想到会发生的，也发生在我身上。

人算不如天算。好多事是难以预料的。。。

可是，当有机会去控制情况，就好好把握机会。因为机会。。 不许多江，咱们都知道我想表达什么。



够啦。。。越写越越兴奋。

多多抱歉，华语水准超低的。。。 哈哈哈

been wanting to change the template and the color of the background throughout the sem.
but didn't really have the time to do it.

its between black and white (background)

and it's been decided with a flip of a coin =)

nth fancy... just something simple/boring... + i suck in HTML

wateva...

footnote: i manage to increase the width of my c-box. =) yay!

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imagine that you in a party, you tend to meet new people, probably your friend's friends. or a meeting between an associate. through contacts and meeting with new faces, we tend to expand our network.

sometimes i tend to ignore the essence of needing people to survive in this harsh and cold reality. a shoulder to lean against when we are just too tired. a hand to pull you through that mud hole.

nowadays, engaging in a social contact tend to be a turn off for me. i used to have an eagerness of meeting people, a drive to expand my so called pathetic small network. however, since... i don't even bother. sad... i know.

probably being content with myself, led to the consequences of 'i don't really care do i know you' kinda attitude. or maybe i'm comfortable with my circle of friends. or maybe....

anyway, that perception should probably be cast away from my mind. having a friend/associate is way better than being alone, although i could. but it's nice to know bout another person, how he thinks, how she perceives, and how they generally response.

question 1

question:

is behavior and addiction similar to each other?

stay strong

streams of silver lining flowing down from mountainous top, all the way down the valley. occasionally, a few strokes from the palm cuts off those salty saddening tears.

it's been 8 years since the last time i saw him cried. not an entirely nice feeling to see a person cry. the sorrow, the pain, the unhappy thoughts, that were accumulated over time. never have the loophole to be release.

and today, it happened again. exactly the same as 8 years ago. only this time, the cries are shorter.

he always find his ways to overcome his matters. ppl around him always say he is strong, courage, and resourceful. but... only he knows best. from the way i see it, he is pretty much all by himself, alone...most of the time.

he don't expect ppl know understand him, although his reason and motives are just pure simple and direct. convince him many times, but always fail.

maybe i just ought to bring him for counseling sessions.

at the mean time, better start reading more in depth bout the theories.

record

personal record:



142 kmph



on a rainy day.