Monday, November 24, 2008

ambition

weng leong, what do you want to be when you grow up?

i want to be an architect.

weng leong, what do you want to be when you grow up?

i want to be a pilot.


those were the days, when we used to fill in a progression card stating what we want to be. i don't see what is the point in doing this. up till now, after pondering for a moment, i can't grasp the meaning of doing it.

does this mean we would be an engineer, a pilot, a nurse when we grow up? there's no special class, or pointers to gear us in the right direction. not that i could recall.

living in an asian context, where 99.9% of the time we were spoon fed. collective culture is being practice since parameswara landed in Malaya shores, it could be way before that. conclusion is; no guidance, no move; you die, i also follow. just like Philip Morris tag line; One Force. to represent and show people that they are indeed hardcore one team that move forward or backwards.

my point is, we need to be shown in everyway. otherwise, there's not much of a chance we would take the initiative to find out. maybe i'm over-generalizing. fact is, most of us are prudent to a certain extend.

back to the main point, ambitions we have since the tender age of 7, we long for it to relish. however, it doesn't happen to most of us all the time. some of us made it, congrats to them. they probably have a heart of steel that embeded them since birth. a will strong enough towitheld challenges and be able to land their dream jobs. i respect those people. seriously.

what bout the rest of us that do not hold down a job that we state in our progression card at the age of 8. well, life still goes on. duh! and it still work out perfectly fine.

i have a friend, he wanted to be a animation designer. and his parents gladly enrolled him into the best college in town which offers that particular course. after studying for 2 semesters, he had a sudden thought of changing course. he was interested in hair, and wanted to be a hairstylist. and no, he's not gay. his mother was skeptical about it. and often questioned her son. in her perception, hairstylist is consider a lowly profession. she always urge her son to try something else other than hairstylist. luckily he didn't say he want to be a janitor in the government building. nothing wrong with that, at all!! chances are his mother will get a heart attack even before he sends out his resume.

i think the whole schema of doctors, engineers, businessman, those so call white collar professions are just societies perception. society would always differentiate and categorize every single person living in a culture as to who belong to who. i understand there's a need to have a sense of belonging. however is it necessary to have it? i feel that we humans are strong enough beings to live on our own. although, living in a bunch makes us feel more ... invulnerable.

conclusion, holding whateva position in a company, is not important. the important thing is, you enjoy what you're doing, at the end of the day, even a garbage collector has food to be put into the mouth. of cause we won't aim that low, if we have a better options.

anyway, i think it's perfectly fine if you're a DBKL sweeper, garbage collector, or CEO in a company. in the end of the day, we are all same. we eat and shit the same way. unless you have some special way, do let me know. thank you =D

Sunday, November 16, 2008

planssS

it's always been said, 'if you fail to plan, you plan to fail'.

however, life is just full of twists and turns. every corner we take, every road we choose, will somehow give you a whole different script, even though you have planned to take that route at the very beginning.

i'm sure many of us have great plans for our own. goals that we would like to achieve, targets that we set for ourselves. this great plans that we have, especially just before the clock struck 12, where everyone of us welcome the brand new year. we usually have a whole list of things and goals we have, that we would like to do, or achieve.

but every time we set foot to ATTEMPT to accomplish it, things will turn out not the way we wanted it to be, not even close.

there could be many factors or incidents that happen along the way, that 'force' us to alter the BIG GOALS that we set for ourselves.

ever wonder why this sort of things happened to us??

the next big question; the quote of plan to fail, fail to plan doesn't suite into the formula of life... ain't it?

the next big big question we should be asking ourselves; why bother to plan? when things don't always turn out the way we want.

sometimes... i'm sick and tired of planning. i rather things happen unexpectedly. at least it surprise me, so that i can enjoy the moment of excitment (if there is) and from there, take things in it's stride.

'no, no... you should plan... a man without goals and plans, ain't a man.'

well... i don't give a damn. things in life happened and changes so fast, sometimes there's no time to take a deep breath and give the 'chup' sign, so that you can pause and have a coke and think bout what to do next. the world will just keep on rotating.

how do we cope then? have big plans, and try our very best to stick to it? or just take each day at a time, follow the flow where the tide takes you?

if the statement at the very first line of this post is proven to be wrong, there's no need for us to plan our way through till the day we lay on the coffin. no??

in the end, we still have to make a choice, which is to plan again, since the very first plan never work out. and there goes the cycle again and again....

Saturday, November 15, 2008

layan.ing boss

wanted to type this out yesterday, but was too tired, and blurry to start off with.

anyway, i was working in Malacca as usual. so. what's the big deal of posting here right. of cuz there's a slight difference. anyway, during half way working, the distributor called one of my team-mates, and said the area manager of Malacca wanted to see us.

what to do... manYZer ma.. go there, layan bit lor.

what turns out to be a meeting became a drinking session. wasn't expect this kinda things to happen. and it wasn't part of my job description as well.

to cut the story short, and go directly to my point.

i don't know how to socialize. i don't know what is your perception and descriptive of socialize. but in my context, i don't know how to.

the social context of working environment is so different. i came across some of my friends saying that they need to layan their bosses, whenever we called for yum-cha.

well, yesterday was my first time tasting this. and i couldn't say i enjoyed it entirely. i mean, i like meeting new people. but layan.ing... is just not my trait...yet. layan.ing boss is like kissing the boss's ass, which i don't particularly fancy of doing.

as if the boss don't have a life. only able to find their employees to drink and have fun with them. 'Get a life!!' go find Beijing gals to make u happy (for males), go find gorgeous gigolos to pamper u (for females).

really no life, i tell u... the boss that we have drinks with, never, NEVER had a gf. and he is like 32, with a belly as big as a 6 months pregnant lady.




what a world we are living in.

Monday, November 10, 2008

look ahead

all i need now is to clear my head before the next wave attempt to shake my papan boat.

Thursday, November 06, 2008

totally absolutely definitely random

if things get bad, should u be walking away?
if things get worst, should u be running away?
if things become good, should u be staying?
if things become better, should be rooting?

Murphy's Law? hmm...

it's not a nice feeling when things doesn't go our way. it's even more frustrating when things could go your way, but it didn't.

on a totally random note;
question: if fart consider as low class, what is consider high class?

i oredi have the answer in my head. if u manage to guess it, winner gets ice lemon tea. =)


AHA moment!! is for me to know, and for u to not to know. anyway, it doesn't concern the global economy or well-being of the soldiers in Iraq or even how to train your dog to be a better dog. if not, i'll share it. i definitely will. =D


PaiSeh: this is wat u get with 4 hours of sleep in the last 60 hours. =.=

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

peace or happy

if given a choice, would you choose peace? or would you choose happiness?

i'll go for peace. *boring!!!*

hear what i have to say first?

peace, in my opinion is a state of mind that is serene, still and quiet. the effect is longer lasting compare with happiness which is just happy the spur of moment. yes, we can always be happy, we can choose to be happy all the time, even when the chips are down. however, it takes a huge amount of effort to flip over to the other side of the coin. and it's not easy.

as for peace, if we are still, if we were in the worst or best possible situation. almost nothing seems to faze us. as if we were prepared to face any potential events that could happen.

i feel is not easy, but certainly do-able.

suddenly lost the kick to write anymore. yaya.. potong stim.

WATEVA...