looking in your eyes, i see there's something,
and sometimes i feel there's a thing.
but in the end, there's just one thing,
and one thing only...
NOTHING.

it's 4 in the morning,
just like what gwen stefani used to sing,
sometimes i feel nothing,
but most of the time, i could feel there's this thing.

it may rhymes like a poetry,
just like the dancing tree.
guess i should start to flee,
wouldn't want to be your bumble bee.

first time is always something,
the next time is nothing.
affectionate is not everything,
but it's always something.

my body is aching, and tired. yet, i'm not sleepy. head a lil heavy, but i can't sleep.

damn, is one of those nights again.

self-reflection, episode 3179, season 133, phase 84, take 1. ACTion...

singapore getaway

was on a run away for a couple of days to Singapore and Batam. i must say, it isn't spectacular as it must sound or feel like. just a short trip down to our neighbouring country. Singapore is just a country like Malaysia. but it is way much cleaner and more systematic. i'm always ammuse by the transport system and certain things that the government run their country.

the competitiveness of the citizens makes them grow even faster than many countries around this region. you may say is their 'kiasu-ness' that is pushing them forward. but hey... it's working. you can't complain much, but ahve admiration of them.

oh well... their city is just like our. shopping almost everywhere. what they lack is the historical background that non exsistance to them. 1963 isin't much of a ulu and kampung-ish era k...

on the first day, meet up with michael at night with christian and xiang. so happen they were all there. just a short yum cha session at Orchard road. then head on the Mustafa shopping mall, it is the only mall in Singapore that operates 24 hours a day. many things to buy, and you can go check it out.

2nd day, went to Batam, Indonesia with my friend. he's been bugging me since last year that he wanted to go, but never had the chance. and i sorta turn him down a couple of times. so yea, it was an opportunity, for him. Batam claims to have cheaper things than Singapore and famous for their prostitute and massage. and no! i didnt do what u thought of! the taxi driver laugh at us, when we say we wanted to go there for shopping. he said: 'no man goes Batam for shopping k!!' u looking at 2, @#^%$# idiot! disclaimer: i didn't engage in any sexual actitivity with the locals there. just body massage, which is pretty good. yea... nth else. seriously.

vivo city is nothing to shout about. all the shops are pretty much the same as we got in our very own megamall. before that, did some catching up with Min Chunn, so we had breakfast with him and his family and his gf. didnt' expect everyone to come. anyway, it was his convo on that day. finally flipping another phase of life for him. Congrats man! after that, went to meet my youngest bro, Eugene. he was having a competition there. shouldn't have went there, was robbed of 50 bucks! claims that mom didnt give him enough allowance. kids nowadays..

all in all, it was a pretty much hectic. rushing here and there.

grr... and i need to bath now to head out for my stupid malaysian studies class.

over the weekend.

was working for LG over the weekend, promoting their air-con in Carrefour, MV. as usual, the first day of a roadshow tend to be a lil not so organize. especially u work in a hypermarket. need to load the stuff at the loading bay. need to find the staff entrance. need to get permission. 1 word; troublesome. another thing if u work in hypermarkets; boring.

this time round, got another promoter teman. so, not that boring. her name is Davina. i thought she is indian or something. anyway, never really bother la. be it chinese, malay, or indian, or indon. whateva. anyway, i suppose to meet her outside of carrefour, so when i got to her, she was sitting down. i thought cannot be. Davina.... should be indian rite. manatau, is a chinese. at 1 point of time, i thought she China mari. cuz she is damn fair. the first thing i told her, she got a very indian-ish name. after i said hi, of cuz.

what so special bout this gal rite. she can frown 25 hours a day. seriously. everytime if i'm talking to her, or she is stoning there. i could she see her frown. never once she don't frown. realize the 4 sentences i just wrote, there are 3 'frown'. include this. 4. that's how frequent she frown. 5!

don't wanna talk bout her anymore, later u will be saying i'm interested in her. which i'm NOT!

went to 1U today, after sending the stuff back to the office. was suppose to watch dark knight. in the end, didnt manage to, cuz my fren here, got errands to do later. so just lepak, window shopping, and went to Waffles to makan. bought 2 t-shirts.

continue jalan-jalan. and this fren of mine keep asking me to go if i got things to do. padahal, i got nothing to do. so, i just balik lah.. takkan wanna so thick skin rite. anyway, before i left. i enter G2000. try on some shirts, but none suites me. by the time i knew it, i was entering every shop that i came across.

while walking aimlessly, Kelsen called. (seriously i was walking ALONE). i saw my fren, yea again. didnt say hi. cuz... u see, my skin kinda thin. so that probably explains why. =)

wanted to watch Hellboy2, but kinda tired. so, just balik je. tat's how my day and weekend whoossh past me.

today... i mean yesterday... wasn't as smooth as i expected. certain things got out of hand, guesses were wrong, instinct totally out. couldn't say is a bad day thou. just a day i have to live without much joy. hope to have a better one tomorrow. i mean TODAY. blah. doesn't matter. what matter is, wake up. things will be good, smooth sailing, and positive throughout the day, follow by next, follow by next... day, week, month, years... ^^ bit tamak, and melampau.

sigh... how good it would be, if we could take control of things that we want to. but sometimes, things are just out of our hands, out of our control. expectation is what leads us to have the urge to control what's in front of us.


on the other hand... no expectation, no goals. if takde goal, how to know where to steer to which direction.

hmm... let god decide? if let god decide, then why take control at the very place right. do we want to have a life that is already been set upon a path for us to take. just like the river flow from the top of the mountain till the open sea.

this is leading no where... gud nitez

circadian

just woke up not long ago, actually i was force to wake up laa. had a really weird dream. @.@
hmm.. the dream goes something like this. i was in this gang, a triad gang in some kampung. so u know what triad gangs normally do la, they bully ppl, and take money from them. but funny thing thou, i don't do the dirty work, neither i ask my followers to do. i just a plain good ole triad member. enough said.

anyway, one day i was in the bus, u know la. kampung ma. probably our boss no money to buy car or something. back to the story, i suddenly had this fight with my boss. we get off the bus as soon as it's near our 'headquarters' surprisingly thou, our headquarters was damn big. the boss was renovating the base. we were still quarelling, in the heat of moment, my boss ask me to go down the a pud full of mud and cement. how could he rite, i was his right hand man lor. as i was taking out my shoes, Nike okay. he pour his teh ais that he da pau from the kopi shop over me. not once but twice. whoa.. embarrass me in front of the gang. so, i hit him in the face, his face was damn disgusting and horrible, terrible, u feel like hitting a few more times.

then suddenly, the scene end up in front of police station, where we had fights, the boss came up with AK-47, bazooka, grenade and all. scary. so i tot the safest place is to get into the police station la. manatau, he station shooting at those police, and bombing their quaters and base. siao!

in the end, i also bueh tahan of the dream and i forcefully wake myself up. -.- and it was 6am!! =.=

thx to the late nights and stress during the sem. i screw up my whole circadian system. i sleep 4-6 hours a night, during my holidays! and have all these kinda weird dreams. omgbbqwtf.

anyway, i force myself to fall back to sleep, but to no vail, i woke up at 9am. so, i thought wat the heck, i went for a jog. it barely lasted for 20mins. last time..... forget it, talk bout last time, i really can vomit blood thinking bout now. interestingly, as i jogged around the park, those aunties and uncles were walking their dogs, cats, or watering the plants gave the kinda look 'leng zhai, u no need to work, or study meh.' so, i look back with; 'no! i'm a multi-millionaire who sit at home do nothing at the same time screw up my circadian system' kinda look. end/

guess i need to work out a lil more often. maybe... twice a week. ha!

side track@ my dog just pee on me. stupid dog. arggh!

hi

seriously, i don't know what to blog. many things happen, many thoughts in my mind. yet i don't know how to put it into words.

for the sake of posting...

hi, everyone... hope you are doing great there!! =)

pieces

is it a trend to just put up a link or a video?? anyway, i stumble upon this sound. don't know how to use imeem.

seems nice.. so yea. =)

aggression

what would happen if u try studying, putting every bit of information in ur long term memory, and trying to make a connection with ur neuron net, trying hard to remember all u have study, and yet forgetting 99.9% of content if not everything once you flip thru the next page.

how would u feel? what emotion u tend to project?

FRUSTRATION!!

and what would happen when frustration overwhelmed ur level of coolness?

AGGRESSION!!

arrggh!!

to make matters worst, i just finish watching SAW. damn nice. no, i'm not talking bout myself. rather it's a movie. don't know apa tu... click here.

more aggression piling, arousal naik.ing... grr!!

tagging addiction

this is what happens when a person gets to obsess/addicted/crazy with tagging in facebook.









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heck.. i can't even differentiate whether i pressed the next page button. =/

stoooppiiiddd!!! class was at 8am, and i reach uni at 10.15am. and i thought i was late. never did i realize, i was so darn late. luckily i have some errands to do, like submitting my school fees. yea, i'm always late in doing this. blame my study loan. and no, it's not FAE. and no, it's does not stand for 'f*** an elephant'.

lately, i've been misplacing alot of stuff, and forgetting where i've put it. sharks... and sometimes, i get myself all work up because of my carelessness and forgetfulness. damn!

i need to spring clean my room. it's a messed. *note*: must do during the holidays.

finals is next week, and i haven't started studying. =.=

yester was sharon's b'day. "happy b'day!" and mike's this coming friday. but we celebrated both together. had heaps of fun making them walk around MV with their party caps on. we watched Made of Honour. not bad la. as aili said 'it's bit cliche'. memang pun, but i did enjoy the movie. i like the dogs in d movie. weird, but yea.. they really have some fine dogs. (how come mine isn't like that)

went out again at night for a mid-nite movie. watched Wanted. already expect a show that is full of special effect, and CG? (dunno whether is called that way) the movie started with a group of co-workers singing a b'day song for their supervisor. coincidentally, it was kelson's b'day as well. on 1st of july, not forgetting my dad's too~

hmm.. nth much to say... a lot of things in my mind right now. just don't know how to put it into words.

i'll just end here abruptly.