Just came back from Seremban. didnt really work.. as most of the shops were closed. apparently, the Sultan of Negeri Sembilan sudah 'jual telur itik masin' = passed away. the people in the state of NS need to mourn his death for 40 days. 40 freaking days!!
no disrespect to the former king, and his immediate family. but are the people suppose to cry and tears for 40 days? no clubbing for 40 days? and no sex for 40 days? no fun for 40 days...
but still 9 days short compare with the Emperor of China.
ish...what am i saying.. this is totally, absolutely nothing to do with me. i won't get caught for saying this 1 rite... *fingers cross*
*thinking*
if i passed away, my boss probably will give 40 bucks to 'finance' my coffin.
anyway... next stop, Ipoh, Perak... and maybe Penang.
happy holidays. ^^
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
over and over
the songs have been playing over and over in my laptop and in my head.
i'm still figuring out what its trying to say.
u know, sometimes we can figure out what we are feeling and thinking through a song. reading between the lines. we could some how search the meaning towards a person's feeling. it's like looking at an abstract painting and drawing out the painter's expression of feelings and thoughts.
i'm a feeler. adding thinking into the equation. you basically get a messy outcome. usually, a thinker and feeler does not get along well (according to a personality test).
my point?? i sometimes tend to complicate my own thoughts, always giving them extra 'touch', 'spice'. you could say i shiok sendiri. no!! i'm NOT fantasizing.
passage above was written 2 days ago.
i found my answers. =)
i'm still figuring out what its trying to say.
u know, sometimes we can figure out what we are feeling and thinking through a song. reading between the lines. we could some how search the meaning towards a person's feeling. it's like looking at an abstract painting and drawing out the painter's expression of feelings and thoughts.
i'm a feeler. adding thinking into the equation. you basically get a messy outcome. usually, a thinker and feeler does not get along well (according to a personality test).
my point?? i sometimes tend to complicate my own thoughts, always giving them extra 'touch', 'spice'. you could say i shiok sendiri. no!! i'm NOT fantasizing.
passage above was written 2 days ago.
i found my answers. =)
Sunday, December 21, 2008
第一篇
不知要写些什么么东西
头脑一片空白
这将会是一片很乱的文章
步入就谈谈关于人生吧！
话体那么地宽。。。 什么都可以讲
有时候，我中知道我对人生中有一个目标
可是， 并不一定会拥有所梦想的。
有时候，知道面前就是你想要的东西或目标
可是，却不想去拥有。
为什么？？？
两个字
逃避
或许。。真的没有勇气的面对了。
从以前直到先在的我，依然没改变，
不能解决的问题，总会的逃避。
真的是一个化习惯。
这一年来，发生了好多事件，
有些事体验过，明明知道没有结果， 因然也会在尝试。
有些事没体验过，也真得很想得去体验。
而有些事很想会发生，闻也没问，见也没见到。
而有些事，根本没想到会发生，不出意料。。 根本没想到会发生的，也发生在我身上。
人算不如天算。好多事是难以预料的。。。
可是，当有机会去控制情况，就好好把握机会。因为机会。。 不许多江，咱们都知道我想表达什么。
够啦。。。越写越越兴奋。
头脑一片空白
这将会是一片很乱的文章
步入就谈谈关于人生吧！
话体那么地宽。。。 什么都可以讲
有时候，我中知道我对人生中有一个目标
可是， 并不一定会拥有所梦想的。
有时候，知道面前就是你想要的东西或目标
可是，却不想去拥有。
为什么？？？
两个字
逃避
或许。。真的没有勇气的面对了。
从以前直到先在的我，依然没改变，
不能解决的问题，总会的逃避。
真的是一个化习惯。
这一年来，发生了好多事件，
有些事体验过，明明知道没有结果， 因然也会在尝试。
有些事没体验过，也真得很想得去体验。
而有些事很想会发生，闻也没问，见也没见到。
而有些事，根本没想到会发生，不出意料。。 根本没想到会发生的，也发生在我身上。
人算不如天算。好多事是难以预料的。。。
可是，当有机会去控制情况，就好好把握机会。因为机会。。 不许多江，咱们都知道我想表达什么。
够啦。。。越写越越兴奋。
多多抱歉，华语水准超低的。。。 哈哈哈
Saturday, December 20, 2008
been wanting to change the template and the color of the background throughout the sem.
but didn't really have the time to do it.
its between black and white (background)
and it's been decided with a flip of a coin =)
nth fancy... just something simple/boring... + i suck in HTML
wateva...
footnote: i manage to increase the width of my c-box. =) yay!
but didn't really have the time to do it.
its between black and white (background)
and it's been decided with a flip of a coin =)
nth fancy... just something simple/boring... + i suck in HTML
wateva...
footnote: i manage to increase the width of my c-box. =) yay!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
untitled 34532
imagine that you in a party, you tend to meet new people, probably your friend's friends. or a meeting between an associate. through contacts and meeting with new faces, we tend to expand our network.
sometimes i tend to ignore the essence of needing people to survive in this harsh and cold reality. a shoulder to lean against when we are just too tired. a hand to pull you through that mud hole.
nowadays, engaging in a social contact tend to be a turn off for me. i used to have an eagerness of meeting people, a drive to expand my so called pathetic small network. however, since... i don't even bother. sad... i know.
probably being content with myself, led to the consequences of 'i don't really care do i know you' kinda attitude. or maybe i'm comfortable with my circle of friends. or maybe....
anyway, that perception should probably be cast away from my mind. having a friend/associate is way better than being alone, although i could. but it's nice to know bout another person, how he thinks, how she perceives, and how they generally response.
sometimes i tend to ignore the essence of needing people to survive in this harsh and cold reality. a shoulder to lean against when we are just too tired. a hand to pull you through that mud hole.
nowadays, engaging in a social contact tend to be a turn off for me. i used to have an eagerness of meeting people, a drive to expand my so called pathetic small network. however, since... i don't even bother. sad... i know.
probably being content with myself, led to the consequences of 'i don't really care do i know you' kinda attitude. or maybe i'm comfortable with my circle of friends. or maybe....
anyway, that perception should probably be cast away from my mind. having a friend/associate is way better than being alone, although i could. but it's nice to know bout another person, how he thinks, how she perceives, and how they generally response.
Monday, December 08, 2008
Sunday, December 07, 2008
stay strong
streams of silver lining flowing down from mountainous top, all the way down the valley. occasionally, a few strokes from the palm cuts off those salty saddening tears.
it's been 8 years since the last time i saw him cried. not an entirely nice feeling to see a person cry. the sorrow, the pain, the unhappy thoughts, that were accumulated over time. never have the loophole to be release.
and today, it happened again. exactly the same as 8 years ago. only this time, the cries are shorter.
he always find his ways to overcome his matters. ppl around him always say he is strong, courage, and resourceful. but... only he knows best. from the way i see it, he is pretty much all by himself, alone...most of the time.
he don't expect ppl know understand him, although his reason and motives are just pure simple and direct. convince him many times, but always fail.
maybe i just ought to bring him for counseling sessions.
at the mean time, better start reading more in depth bout the theories.
it's been 8 years since the last time i saw him cried. not an entirely nice feeling to see a person cry. the sorrow, the pain, the unhappy thoughts, that were accumulated over time. never have the loophole to be release.
and today, it happened again. exactly the same as 8 years ago. only this time, the cries are shorter.
he always find his ways to overcome his matters. ppl around him always say he is strong, courage, and resourceful. but... only he knows best. from the way i see it, he is pretty much all by himself, alone...most of the time.
he don't expect ppl know understand him, although his reason and motives are just pure simple and direct. convince him many times, but always fail.
maybe i just ought to bring him for counseling sessions.
at the mean time, better start reading more in depth bout the theories.
Thursday, December 04, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
ambition
weng leong, what do you want to be when you grow up?
i want to be an architect.
weng leong, what do you want to be when you grow up?
i want to be a pilot.
those were the days, when we used to fill in a progression card stating what we want to be. i don't see what is the point in doing this. up till now, after pondering for a moment, i can't grasp the meaning of doing it.
does this mean we would be an engineer, a pilot, a nurse when we grow up? there's no special class, or pointers to gear us in the right direction. not that i could recall.
living in an asian context, where 99.9% of the time we were spoon fed. collective culture is being practice since parameswara landed in Malaya shores, it could be way before that. conclusion is; no guidance, no move; you die, i also follow. just like Philip Morris tag line; One Force. to represent and show people that they are indeed hardcore one team that move forward or backwards.
my point is, we need to be shown in everyway. otherwise, there's not much of a chance we would take the initiative to find out. maybe i'm over-generalizing. fact is, most of us are prudent to a certain extend.
back to the main point, ambitions we have since the tender age of 7, we long for it to relish. however, it doesn't happen to most of us all the time. some of us made it, congrats to them. they probably have a heart of steel that embeded them since birth. a will strong enough towitheld challenges and be able to land their dream jobs. i respect those people. seriously.
what bout the rest of us that do not hold down a job that we state in our progression card at the age of 8. well, life still goes on. duh! and it still work out perfectly fine.
i have a friend, he wanted to be a animation designer. and his parents gladly enrolled him into the best college in town which offers that particular course. after studying for 2 semesters, he had a sudden thought of changing course. he was interested in hair, and wanted to be a hairstylist. and no, he's not gay. his mother was skeptical about it. and often questioned her son. in her perception, hairstylist is consider a lowly profession. she always urge her son to try something else other than hairstylist. luckily he didn't say he want to be a janitor in the government building. nothing wrong with that, at all!! chances are his mother will get a heart attack even before he sends out his resume.
i think the whole schema of doctors, engineers, businessman, those so call white collar professions are just societies perception. society would always differentiate and categorize every single person living in a culture as to who belong to who. i understand there's a need to have a sense of belonging. however is it necessary to have it? i feel that we humans are strong enough beings to live on our own. although, living in a bunch makes us feel more ... invulnerable.
conclusion, holding whateva position in a company, is not important. the important thing is, you enjoy what you're doing, at the end of the day, even a garbage collector has food to be put into the mouth. of cause we won't aim that low, if we have a better options.
anyway, i think it's perfectly fine if you're a DBKL sweeper, garbage collector, or CEO in a company. in the end of the day, we are all same. we eat and shit the same way. unless you have some special way, do let me know. thank you =D
i want to be an architect.
weng leong, what do you want to be when you grow up?
i want to be a pilot.
those were the days, when we used to fill in a progression card stating what we want to be. i don't see what is the point in doing this. up till now, after pondering for a moment, i can't grasp the meaning of doing it.
does this mean we would be an engineer, a pilot, a nurse when we grow up? there's no special class, or pointers to gear us in the right direction. not that i could recall.
living in an asian context, where 99.9% of the time we were spoon fed. collective culture is being practice since parameswara landed in Malaya shores, it could be way before that. conclusion is; no guidance, no move; you die, i also follow. just like Philip Morris tag line; One Force. to represent and show people that they are indeed hardcore one team that move forward or backwards.
my point is, we need to be shown in everyway. otherwise, there's not much of a chance we would take the initiative to find out. maybe i'm over-generalizing. fact is, most of us are prudent to a certain extend.
back to the main point, ambitions we have since the tender age of 7, we long for it to relish. however, it doesn't happen to most of us all the time. some of us made it, congrats to them. they probably have a heart of steel that embeded them since birth. a will strong enough towitheld challenges and be able to land their dream jobs. i respect those people. seriously.
what bout the rest of us that do not hold down a job that we state in our progression card at the age of 8. well, life still goes on. duh! and it still work out perfectly fine.
i have a friend, he wanted to be a animation designer. and his parents gladly enrolled him into the best college in town which offers that particular course. after studying for 2 semesters, he had a sudden thought of changing course. he was interested in hair, and wanted to be a hairstylist. and no, he's not gay. his mother was skeptical about it. and often questioned her son. in her perception, hairstylist is consider a lowly profession. she always urge her son to try something else other than hairstylist. luckily he didn't say he want to be a janitor in the government building. nothing wrong with that, at all!! chances are his mother will get a heart attack even before he sends out his resume.
i think the whole schema of doctors, engineers, businessman, those so call white collar professions are just societies perception. society would always differentiate and categorize every single person living in a culture as to who belong to who. i understand there's a need to have a sense of belonging. however is it necessary to have it? i feel that we humans are strong enough beings to live on our own. although, living in a bunch makes us feel more ... invulnerable.
conclusion, holding whateva position in a company, is not important. the important thing is, you enjoy what you're doing, at the end of the day, even a garbage collector has food to be put into the mouth. of cause we won't aim that low, if we have a better options.
anyway, i think it's perfectly fine if you're a DBKL sweeper, garbage collector, or CEO in a company. in the end of the day, we are all same. we eat and shit the same way. unless you have some special way, do let me know. thank you =D
Sunday, November 16, 2008
planssS
it's always been said, 'if you fail to plan, you plan to fail'.
however, life is just full of twists and turns. every corner we take, every road we choose, will somehow give you a whole different script, even though you have planned to take that route at the very beginning.
i'm sure many of us have great plans for our own. goals that we would like to achieve, targets that we set for ourselves. this great plans that we have, especially just before the clock struck 12, where everyone of us welcome the brand new year. we usually have a whole list of things and goals we have, that we would like to do, or achieve.
but every time we set foot to ATTEMPT to accomplish it, things will turn out not the way we wanted it to be, not even close.
there could be many factors or incidents that happen along the way, that 'force' us to alter the BIG GOALS that we set for ourselves.
ever wonder why this sort of things happened to us??
the next big question; the quote of plan to fail, fail to plan doesn't suite into the formula of life... ain't it?
the next big big question we should be asking ourselves; why bother to plan? when things don't always turn out the way we want.
sometimes... i'm sick and tired of planning. i rather things happen unexpectedly. at least it surprise me, so that i can enjoy the moment of excitment (if there is) and from there, take things in it's stride.
'no, no... you should plan... a man without goals and plans, ain't a man.'
well... i don't give a damn. things in life happened and changes so fast, sometimes there's no time to take a deep breath and give the 'chup' sign, so that you can pause and have a coke and think bout what to do next. the world will just keep on rotating.
how do we cope then? have big plans, and try our very best to stick to it? or just take each day at a time, follow the flow where the tide takes you?
if the statement at the very first line of this post is proven to be wrong, there's no need for us to plan our way through till the day we lay on the coffin. no??
in the end, we still have to make a choice, which is to plan again, since the very first plan never work out. and there goes the cycle again and again....
however, life is just full of twists and turns. every corner we take, every road we choose, will somehow give you a whole different script, even though you have planned to take that route at the very beginning.
i'm sure many of us have great plans for our own. goals that we would like to achieve, targets that we set for ourselves. this great plans that we have, especially just before the clock struck 12, where everyone of us welcome the brand new year. we usually have a whole list of things and goals we have, that we would like to do, or achieve.
but every time we set foot to ATTEMPT to accomplish it, things will turn out not the way we wanted it to be, not even close.
there could be many factors or incidents that happen along the way, that 'force' us to alter the BIG GOALS that we set for ourselves.
ever wonder why this sort of things happened to us??
the next big question; the quote of plan to fail, fail to plan doesn't suite into the formula of life... ain't it?
the next big big question we should be asking ourselves; why bother to plan? when things don't always turn out the way we want.
sometimes... i'm sick and tired of planning. i rather things happen unexpectedly. at least it surprise me, so that i can enjoy the moment of excitment (if there is) and from there, take things in it's stride.
'no, no... you should plan... a man without goals and plans, ain't a man.'
well... i don't give a damn. things in life happened and changes so fast, sometimes there's no time to take a deep breath and give the 'chup' sign, so that you can pause and have a coke and think bout what to do next. the world will just keep on rotating.
how do we cope then? have big plans, and try our very best to stick to it? or just take each day at a time, follow the flow where the tide takes you?
if the statement at the very first line of this post is proven to be wrong, there's no need for us to plan our way through till the day we lay on the coffin. no??
in the end, we still have to make a choice, which is to plan again, since the very first plan never work out. and there goes the cycle again and again....
Saturday, November 15, 2008
layan.ing boss
wanted to type this out yesterday, but was too tired, and blurry to start off with.
anyway, i was working in Malacca as usual. so. what's the big deal of posting here right. of cuz there's a slight difference. anyway, during half way working, the distributor called one of my team-mates, and said the area manager of Malacca wanted to see us.
what to do... manYZer ma.. go there, layan bit lor.
what turns out to be a meeting became a drinking session. wasn't expect this kinda things to happen. and it wasn't part of my job description as well.
to cut the story short, and go directly to my point.
i don't know how to socialize. i don't know what is your perception and descriptive of socialize. but in my context, i don't know how to.
the social context of working environment is so different. i came across some of my friends saying that they need to layan their bosses, whenever we called for yum-cha.
well, yesterday was my first time tasting this. and i couldn't say i enjoyed it entirely. i mean, i like meeting new people. but layan.ing... is just not my trait...yet. layan.ing boss is like kissing the boss's ass, which i don't particularly fancy of doing.
as if the boss don't have a life. only able to find their employees to drink and have fun with them. 'Get a life!!' go find Beijing gals to make u happy (for males), go find gorgeous gigolos to pamper u (for females).
really no life, i tell u... the boss that we have drinks with, never, NEVER had a gf. and he is like 32, with a belly as big as a 6 months pregnant lady.
what a world we are living in.
anyway, i was working in Malacca as usual. so. what's the big deal of posting here right. of cuz there's a slight difference. anyway, during half way working, the distributor called one of my team-mates, and said the area manager of Malacca wanted to see us.
what to do... manYZer ma.. go there, layan bit lor.
what turns out to be a meeting became a drinking session. wasn't expect this kinda things to happen. and it wasn't part of my job description as well.
to cut the story short, and go directly to my point.
i don't know how to socialize. i don't know what is your perception and descriptive of socialize. but in my context, i don't know how to.
the social context of working environment is so different. i came across some of my friends saying that they need to layan their bosses, whenever we called for yum-cha.
well, yesterday was my first time tasting this. and i couldn't say i enjoyed it entirely. i mean, i like meeting new people. but layan.ing... is just not my trait...yet. layan.ing boss is like kissing the boss's ass, which i don't particularly fancy of doing.
as if the boss don't have a life. only able to find their employees to drink and have fun with them. 'Get a life!!' go find Beijing gals to make u happy (for males), go find gorgeous gigolos to pamper u (for females).
really no life, i tell u... the boss that we have drinks with, never, NEVER had a gf. and he is like 32, with a belly as big as a 6 months pregnant lady.
what a world we are living in.
Monday, November 10, 2008
Thursday, November 06, 2008
totally absolutely definitely random
if things get bad, should u be walking away?
if things get worst, should u be running away?
if things become good, should u be staying?
if things become better, should be rooting?
Murphy's Law? hmm...
it's not a nice feeling when things doesn't go our way. it's even more frustrating when things could go your way, but it didn't.
on a totally random note;
question: if fart consider as low class, what is consider high class?
i oredi have the answer in my head. if u manage to guess it, winner gets ice lemon tea. =)
AHA moment!! is for me to know, and for u to not to know. anyway, it doesn't concern the global economy or well-being of the soldiers in Iraq or even how to train your dog to be a better dog. if not, i'll share it. i definitely will. =D
PaiSeh: this is wat u get with 4 hours of sleep in the last 60 hours. =.=
if things get worst, should u be running away?
if things become good, should u be staying?
if things become better, should be rooting?
Murphy's Law? hmm...
it's not a nice feeling when things doesn't go our way. it's even more frustrating when things could go your way, but it didn't.
on a totally random note;
question: if fart consider as low class, what is consider high class?
i oredi have the answer in my head. if u manage to guess it, winner gets ice lemon tea. =)
AHA moment!! is for me to know, and for u to not to know. anyway, it doesn't concern the global economy or well-being of the soldiers in Iraq or even how to train your dog to be a better dog. if not, i'll share it. i definitely will. =D
PaiSeh: this is wat u get with 4 hours of sleep in the last 60 hours. =.=
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
peace or happy
if given a choice, would you choose peace? or would you choose happiness?
i'll go for peace. *boring!!!*
hear what i have to say first?
peace, in my opinion is a state of mind that is serene, still and quiet. the effect is longer lasting compare with happiness which is just happy the spur of moment. yes, we can always be happy, we can choose to be happy all the time, even when the chips are down. however, it takes a huge amount of effort to flip over to the other side of the coin. and it's not easy.
as for peace, if we are still, if we were in the worst or best possible situation. almost nothing seems to faze us. as if we were prepared to face any potential events that could happen.
i feel is not easy, but certainly do-able.
suddenly lost the kick to write anymore. yaya.. potong stim.
i'll go for peace. *boring!!!*
hear what i have to say first?
peace, in my opinion is a state of mind that is serene, still and quiet. the effect is longer lasting compare with happiness which is just happy the spur of moment. yes, we can always be happy, we can choose to be happy all the time, even when the chips are down. however, it takes a huge amount of effort to flip over to the other side of the coin. and it's not easy.
as for peace, if we are still, if we were in the worst or best possible situation. almost nothing seems to faze us. as if we were prepared to face any potential events that could happen.
i feel is not easy, but certainly do-able.
suddenly lost the kick to write anymore. yaya.. potong stim.
WATEVA...
Thursday, October 30, 2008
brief update
long overdue photos.
and i have yet to receive from mike and darryl's.
was given a surprise party, humans that attended. ben's belated and my be-early celebration.
(from left: mike, han wai, chun feng, hau ran, ivy, betz,priscilla, sharon, aili, mandy, edmund, jeff, kin you, and ben-beside me)
(from left: mike, han wai, chun feng, hau ran, ivy, betz,priscilla, sharon, aili, mandy, edmund, jeff, kin you, and ben-beside me)
egg-less blueberry cheese cake. taste exactly like the normal, and good too.
presents i've received this year. opps, there's a perfume too, terlupa take out.
love every single 1 of them.
oh ya, there's something i would like to highlight.
the shoes and jersey, were contributed from 24 friends. 12 gals, and 12 guys.
coincidence? maybe...
i find it... coincidence. lol
once again, i would like to say a big thank you to everyone who celebrated with me, thank you for ur lovely presents, as well as for all your wishes.
you made my day.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
lie
it's official. i don't know how to lie. seriously.
look.. i'm dead serious.
stop laughing.... if you are.
i said STOP.
look.. i'm dead serious.
stop laughing.... if you are.
i said STOP.
my colleagues just said i don't know how to lie. wtf. in a way, is a good thing. at least to me. back to the 'i don't know how to lie' part. seriously, she said i don't know how to.
it's seems like heading nowhere.
brief story: client from headquarters came to malacca to spot check on us. and she told me, the only thing we need to know in our job scope, is to lie. anything else doesn't matter but to lie. geng rite?!?! i sorta expect this kinda thing, when i first started out working in this kinda job.
long story short, i sorta kena screw, because i didnt know how to lie to the client. NS, i was thinking to myself; in that particular situation, there's nothing to lie.
i wonder how they go thru their daily life, leaving one lie after another. 1 thing i can see, is that there's insecurity in their relationship. 1 gal, who's staying with his bf, calls his bf a number of times a day. another gal, also did the same thing, maybe a few lesser calls than the first gal.
nothing to comment. but just wish them good luck.
i understand that, we are trying to protect our own 'rice bowl', there are pressure from the superior, and wateva reasons that we need to lie. but... don't they know where is the limit? what happen if something fucked up. in that situation, i think i'm the one gonna be push out the marching line. and the only thing happen when i turn back is 3 pathetic gals holding their hands, pleading their innocent with their 'innocent' face.
wtf!!! i wiki the word lie, because i wanted to insert into my intro above. but was too engross? pissed? wateva la. turns out that there's so many types of lie.
white lie
bold-face lie
noble lie
emergency lie
just check them urself la.
everybody lies (house, 06)
Saturday, October 25, 2008
2 cycles =)
woot!! 2 cycles, and still going strong. to those who don't know what this 'cycle' means; is basically in chinese terminology, every year is represented by 1 animal, and there are 12 animals all together, and it makes 1 cycle when u go thru all 12 of them.
so, now. u know how old am i. but.. DON'T!! SAY IT!
i'm blogging in the hotel lobby, listening to some lousy malay songs. (no offense).
this year celebrated rather early. even the wishes i received were all before the actual date.
anyhow, thx everyone for their wishes, presents, and attendances during Chawan.
t admit
oh yea.. to those who wonder y am i in a hotel lobby. (just in case, u wonder). i'm working in Malacca. just finished work bout 2 hours ago. so, yea... i'm not 'doing' anything fishy, suspicious and sneaky. and WRONG. i very 'jeng ging' okayy...
oh ya.. pictures will soon be posted up. that's till i get those pictures from whom took photos the other day.
having that said, bro msg me just now. n i love his msg. i must admit it caught me off guard a lil. didnt know he's that cheaky.
erm.. i dont know how to continue ledi...
so, now. u know how old am i. but.. DON'T!! SAY IT!
i'm blogging in the hotel lobby, listening to some lousy malay songs. (no offense).
this year celebrated rather early. even the wishes i received were all before the actual date.
anyhow, thx everyone for their wishes, presents, and attendances during Chawan.
t admit
oh yea.. to those who wonder y am i in a hotel lobby. (just in case, u wonder). i'm working in Malacca. just finished work bout 2 hours ago. so, yea... i'm not 'doing' anything fishy, suspicious and sneaky. and WRONG. i very 'jeng ging' okayy...
oh ya.. pictures will soon be posted up. that's till i get those pictures from whom took photos the other day.
having that said, bro msg me just now. n i love his msg. i must admit it caught me off guard a lil. didnt know he's that cheaky.
erm.. i dont know how to continue ledi...
oh ya.. HAPPY B'DAY TO ME!!
woohoo! perasan. ........................... like i care.
woohoo! perasan. ........................... like i care.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
ass
sometimes i can just be an ass.
ignoring emotions.
being nice, just ain't easy. maintaining it is even harder.
no wonder is so damn hard to stay at the top. is lonely, is cold, at times is tormenting. it just strips you apart.
it's so easy to be drawn to the dark side of nature.
ignoring emotions.
being nice, just ain't easy. maintaining it is even harder.
no wonder is so damn hard to stay at the top. is lonely, is cold, at times is tormenting. it just strips you apart.
it's so easy to be drawn to the dark side of nature.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
morning errands
mom: can u help me push my car? i'm just outside the petrol station.
me: . . . (just woke up)
mom: pls... n send me to work as well, i don't think the car is gonna start.
me: drive my car.
mom: don't want.
me: that's ur problem.
mom: . . .
me: i'm on my way now.
apart from that, a good way to start ur day, beside being awaken by those 'unwanted calls', is to have a healthy breakfast.
after sending her to work, that took me an hour. stupid bangsar traffic lightsssS. arrgh! and couldn't use Duta way, because traffic reports says is freaking jam.
as i was saying, a bagus start up, is to have a 健康 breakfast.
so i made...
healthy-kan?
PaiSeh: i didn't blast 'that's ur problem' at my mom k.
me: . . . (just woke up)
mom: pls... n send me to work as well, i don't think the car is gonna start.
me: drive my car.
mom: don't want.
me: that's ur problem.
mom: . . .
me: i'm on my way now.
apart from that, a good way to start ur day, beside being awaken by those 'unwanted calls', is to have a healthy breakfast.
after sending her to work, that took me an hour. stupid bangsar traffic lightsssS. arrgh! and couldn't use Duta way, because traffic reports says is freaking jam.
as i was saying, a bagus start up, is to have a 健康 breakfast.
so i made...
healthy-kan?
PaiSeh: i didn't blast 'that's ur problem' at my mom k.
Monday, October 13, 2008
去年的今天.....
it was probably the most miserable day of the year. not good at all. i still remember that i locked myself in the room and sulked, cried, and feeling miserable the whole night.
why suddenly recalled this such uneventful, totally despair, and suck memories?
my friend's fault (was reading his blog)
anyway, that was in the past la. exactly a year, 365 days. no point talking bout it, if u really want to know. just mail me, or call me out yum cha =D
today... wasn't exactly too bad. had 2 papers for mid term. first paper was ok. the second, if you watched Dark Water, you know how crappy the story line is. and that is the total reflection of my paper.
enough said, still got 3 chapters before i call it a day.
去年的今天, 你正在做什么呢？(on this day of last year, what were you doing?)
it was probably the most miserable day of the year. not good at all. i still remember that i locked myself in the room and sulked, cried, and feeling miserable the whole night.
why suddenly recalled this such uneventful, totally despair, and suck memories?
my friend's fault (was reading his blog)
anyway, that was in the past la. exactly a year, 365 days. no point talking bout it, if u really want to know. just mail me, or call me out yum cha =D
today... wasn't exactly too bad. had 2 papers for mid term. first paper was ok. the second, if you watched Dark Water, you know how crappy the story line is. and that is the total reflection of my paper.
enough said, still got 3 chapters before i call it a day.
去年的今天, 你正在做什么呢？(on this day of last year, what were you doing?)
Friday, October 10, 2008
INTP
wanted to write bout something that just creep in my mind. but i'll put it aside 1st la. if next time can recall, probably u'll see it in the next post.
anyway, was told to do a personality test. Myers Briggs test. psychologist kononnya. call me freak, or psycho. wateva. i'm just studying this damn course. if ur doing science, shud i label u mad scientist? studying finance, money minded freak? how bout pharmacist... maybe drug addict sounds more like it.
let's not stray too far. psycho wanna share something today.
i'm INTP. if u dont' know what the heck is this. click here
is not to check how whacky u are, or how stupid u are, just an overview of who you are as a person. maybe to learn a lil more bout urself.
basically this test got 8 personalities. extravert/introvert; judging/perceiving; thinking/feeling; intuititive/sense. after doing this test, u would have any combination of 4 personalities. in theory..you would be able to know what kinda person u are.
back to me self.
i'm basically a loner, more interested in intellectual pursuits than relationships or family, meaning? become a monk isit?! wrestles with the meaninglessness of existence, disorganized, messy, likes science fiction, can be lonely, observer, private, can't describe feelings easily, detached, likes solitude, not revealing, unemotional, rule breaker, avoidant, familiar with the darkside, skeptical, acts without consulting others, does not think they are weird but others do, socially uncomfortable, abrupt, fantasy prone, does not like happy people?? wtf, appreciates strangeness, frequently loses things, acts without planning, guarded, not punctual, more likely to support marijuana legalization, i like this. jk. not prone to compromise, hard to persuade, relies on mind more than on others, calm
favor careers...
i'll ignore those boring careers. check out these cool? careers i could 'possibly' venture into. forensic anthropologist, astronaut, genetics researcher... sounds cool? no? wateva! but above all, i'm suitable of becoming an assassin!! no joke!
wanna try out what careers you could consider venturing in.. maybe a prostitute? a spy? or a shit-cleaner?
btw, people changes all the time. if you have certain kinda personalities, doesn't mean you will be same the next time you test again. cheers
anyway, was told to do a personality test. Myers Briggs test. psychologist kononnya. call me freak, or psycho. wateva. i'm just studying this damn course. if ur doing science, shud i label u mad scientist? studying finance, money minded freak? how bout pharmacist... maybe drug addict sounds more like it.
let's not stray too far. psycho wanna share something today.
i'm INTP. if u dont' know what the heck is this. click here
is not to check how whacky u are, or how stupid u are, just an overview of who you are as a person. maybe to learn a lil more bout urself.
basically this test got 8 personalities. extravert/introvert; judging/perceiving; thinking/feeling; intuititive/sense. after doing this test, u would have any combination of 4 personalities. in theory..you would be able to know what kinda person u are.
back to me self.
i'm basically a loner, more interested in intellectual pursuits than relationships or family, meaning? become a monk isit?! wrestles with the meaninglessness of existence, disorganized, messy, likes science fiction, can be lonely, observer, private, can't describe feelings easily, detached, likes solitude, not revealing, unemotional, rule breaker, avoidant, familiar with the darkside, skeptical, acts without consulting others, does not think they are weird but others do, socially uncomfortable, abrupt, fantasy prone, does not like happy people?? wtf, appreciates strangeness, frequently loses things, acts without planning, guarded, not punctual, more likely to support marijuana legalization, i like this. jk. not prone to compromise, hard to persuade, relies on mind more than on others, calm
favor careers...
i'll ignore those boring careers. check out these cool? careers i could 'possibly' venture into. forensic anthropologist, astronaut, genetics researcher... sounds cool? no? wateva! but above all, i'm suitable of becoming an assassin!! no joke!
wanna try out what careers you could consider venturing in.. maybe a prostitute? a spy? or a shit-cleaner?
btw, people changes all the time. if you have certain kinda personalities, doesn't mean you will be same the next time you test again. cheers
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
side note
okok...! fine!! i'll let go if you want me to.
on a side note, waited for 3 hours for the car to be fixed. results: 1 maggie goreng, 1 ice lemon, 1 teh ice and milo ice.
on another side note, in case you were wondering why so long. i banged a car 2 days ago. best response so far: 'Wa..! why la u bang Merc, banged Ferrari ma!' yea.. i 'kissed' a Merc. it was 'sweet' unforgettable kiss. consequence: went to lodge a police report for the very first time. ALONe. but it was ok la.. the policemen are nice. some. period.
totally another side note; went for futsal last night. end up playing 90 minutes instead of 60. hey! that's a full period of football on field. cool. end up with a swollen leg. still walk-able. KIN YOU, U CANNOT TACKLE IN FUTSAL. IT'S NOT FOOTBALL. so, you know who causes my injury la. funny thing, my chest also pain. legs doing the running, but chest pain. *shakes head*
1 more side note: ppl are just plain inconsiderate, and heartless, and cold-blooded. witnessed a hit and run accident. some driver knocked over a MacD delivery guy. Kelsen went to call the ambulance. and others just stand and enjoy the excellent process of the delivery guy excruciating pain. side note from 1 more side note; i didnt know MacD deliver guys were so efficient. 5 mins after the hit, 7 bikers came to his 'rescue'. another side note from 1 more side note; poor customer who waited for his burger. must be cursing the injured delivery guy.
chill... no more side notes ledi la.
btw, my bro was listening to this song, askin ppl to let go. probably on repeat mode, and fell asleep half way thru. hmm.. don't u think is a good threatment? hypnosis. =D last side note; maybe he's in a dliemma? shall become his counselor later. muahaha
dinner time!!
Sunday, October 05, 2008
coincidence *
coincidence never fail to amaze me.
is it fate?
is it luck??
or is it just pure coincidence???
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
personality test
PSY 202... there will be only 1 statement to fit into this subject = loads of questionnaire.
PSY 207... there's also only 1 statement to fit into this subject = personality
what if you combine both?? Personality Questionnaire. Or Personality Test if u prefer to call it.
usually people will do once, and we usually take the first as the answer, or rather we accept it as our personality. maybe not accept la. we get to know? how our personality goes about. u do get my drift rite...
anyway, as psychologist, or so call future psychologist, or maybe not. lol! we could never be satisfy with one answer. there's a need to strive for an answer that is logical, relevant, and possibly true.
having said that... i did two personality test. muahahaha.. yea.. 'backpsych' itch.
first test
second test
i think rite, i'm more alike to the second test. why? because sometimes i can really talk alot, althou i'm quiet at times. no point trying to prove my point, where there are harder and stronger facts to back my stand on taking the second test.
if you're interested in taking the test. click here.
just to know yourself a lil more better. there's an explanation at the side and end of the test. =)
happy filling out the questionnaire.
read the explaination if you have the time, and see whether i'm more alike to the first or the second test.
PSY 207... there's also only 1 statement to fit into this subject = personality
what if you combine both?? Personality Questionnaire. Or Personality Test if u prefer to call it.
usually people will do once, and we usually take the first as the answer, or rather we accept it as our personality. maybe not accept la. we get to know? how our personality goes about. u do get my drift rite...
anyway, as psychologist, or so call future psychologist, or maybe not. lol! we could never be satisfy with one answer. there's a need to strive for an answer that is logical, relevant, and possibly true.
having said that... i did two personality test. muahahaha.. yea.. 'backpsych' itch.
first test
second test
i think rite, i'm more alike to the second test. why? because sometimes i can really talk alot, althou i'm quiet at times. no point trying to prove my point, where there are harder and stronger facts to back my stand on taking the second test.
if you're interested in taking the test. click here.
just to know yourself a lil more better. there's an explanation at the side and end of the test. =)
happy filling out the questionnaire.
read the explaination if you have the time, and see whether i'm more alike to the first or the second test.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Q&A
Question:
is it difficult to be assertive in most situations? what do you believe people are going to think of you when you act assertively for your own benefit?
Answer:
Being assertive is definitely going to be hard in most situations. And when we act assertively for own benefit, perception of people will always think otherwise, even though the objective could be entirely good from our part. i guess the first three letter of the word assertive says it all, not being entirely positive, and yet it manage to get the job done most of the time
will i get expel for this??
is it difficult to be assertive in most situations? what do you believe people are going to think of you when you act assertively for your own benefit?
Answer:
Being assertive is definitely going to be hard in most situations. And when we act assertively for own benefit, perception of people will always think otherwise, even though the objective could be entirely good from our part. i guess the first three letter of the word assertive says it all, not being entirely positive, and yet it manage to get the job done most of the time
will i get expel for this??
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
guidance
i stumble upon a post, and it reminds me of the past. sometimes i wonder and at times seems worrying? i don't know. why should i give a damn...
writing chapter XXX on a fresh piece of paper wasn't easy. as i don't know where to start. everything seems blurry even though it's just a blank piece of paper waiting for me to write something on it. at times the reflection of paper seems like a bright light persistently sucking me into it.
things happened so fast... i think i'm still lagging behind in lap 2, whereas everyone is moving forward and bout to finish the race. i hate to be on the losing side, anyway, who does...? but that's life, and i admit defeat.
i do not dare to fall, as i have not learn how to accept myself. as i have, i'm not prepare to get hurt... yet. or maybe this will turn out just fine. who knows? no one... even god.
i'm in the midst of crossroads. so many doors that are equally tempting for me to explore. i don't know which to take. emotionally, i'm just a total mess up. and it's affecting my thoughts. seriously.
i do believe in god. and if there's really one out there. please guide me through this horrendous process, i don't wish to suffer, as i know life is not bout suffering. i just need a breakthrough. to really discover who am i... what i'm capable of... for a start.
just what are you testing me for what i'm going through at this very moment.
writing chapter XXX on a fresh piece of paper wasn't easy. as i don't know where to start. everything seems blurry even though it's just a blank piece of paper waiting for me to write something on it. at times the reflection of paper seems like a bright light persistently sucking me into it.
things happened so fast... i think i'm still lagging behind in lap 2, whereas everyone is moving forward and bout to finish the race. i hate to be on the losing side, anyway, who does...? but that's life, and i admit defeat.
i do not dare to fall, as i have not learn how to accept myself. as i have, i'm not prepare to get hurt... yet. or maybe this will turn out just fine. who knows? no one... even god.
i'm in the midst of crossroads. so many doors that are equally tempting for me to explore. i don't know which to take. emotionally, i'm just a total mess up. and it's affecting my thoughts. seriously.
i do believe in god. and if there's really one out there. please guide me through this horrendous process, i don't wish to suffer, as i know life is not bout suffering. i just need a breakthrough. to really discover who am i... what i'm capable of... for a start.
just what are you testing me for what i'm going through at this very moment.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
cutest mom contest entry
mom: is that the who who who??
me: er.. who?
mom: *typical mom stare*
me: orh.. no la!! what makes you think so?!
mom: i thought...
me: cannot be, and it won't be. why ask?
mom: just concern bout you. fulfilling the mom's responsibility. can o not?
me: caaann... your so sweet.
mom: of cuz!!
me: since i'm single, can we just become couple.
mom: caaann... if i'm not married to your dad.
me: *doink* dad....!!!
me: er.. who?
mom: *typical mom stare*
me: orh.. no la!! what makes you think so?!
mom: i thought...
me: cannot be, and it won't be. why ask?
mom: just concern bout you. fulfilling the mom's responsibility. can o not?
me: caaann... your so sweet.
mom: of cuz!!
me: since i'm single, can we just become couple.
mom: caaann... if i'm not married to your dad.
me: *doink* dad....!!!
Sunday, September 14, 2008
equation
why.. why sometimes in life, when we want something so badly, and we never seems to get what we want. why we desperately need something, we just don't get it, even we wish upon the wishing stars. worst of all, we don't get it, even we work hard for it, and it just doesn't waltz through the grand hall way.
i understand that certain things will not drop on our lap, even though we pray to Santa every night before heading to bed. but wanting something badly PLUS working hard for it, EQUALS to you don't get what you want. the equation just sucks bad time.
on a random note, had a conversation with my mom.
i understand that certain things will not drop on our lap, even though we pray to Santa every night before heading to bed. but wanting something badly PLUS working hard for it, EQUALS to you don't get what you want. the equation just sucks bad time.
on a random note, had a conversation with my mom.
'boy, why are the guys carrying the gals handbag?'
'cuz they are gentleman..?'
'no no no... you call that gentleman?'
'if not? i think the couple is showing affection'
'affection?? ya rite? more like possession.
'cuz they are gentleman..?'
'no no no... you call that gentleman?'
'if not? i think the couple is showing affection'
'affection?? ya rite? more like possession.
=.='''
sometimes my mom just...
Saturday, September 13, 2008
NS!!! damn 7 slow. .!!
i'm in a CC near my house. stupid connection at home couldn't be access. TMD!! it's been 2 days! i think mom didnt' pay the bill. either way, i'll check it out tmr!
everytime the connection also got problem when i got urgent matter to do. for your info, i have not print my exam docket for malaysian studies paper. thought i could get it from registry today, but the admin staff told me to check my mail again. damn!! can't she just freaking print the exam docket for me?!?! so damn 7 ma fan meh?!
i've been waiting 20 mins for the freaking file to be download aili send to me. mind you, it's just 23KB. and it is taking forever to download into the freaking computer. 'what 7' kinda CC is this?!?! is sl0wer, much slower than dial-up connection.
realize i curse alot?! i think i got affected by a bunch of kids behind me Dota-ing. they curse like nobody business. so hence the tendency to curse as well. plus the frustration that is occurring. grrr....
fark!! 30 mins ledi, and it's not f***ing moving!! WTH!! i doubt this entry will be uploaded into my blog. if it does, good la. if not, i think i'll go crazy.
it's 1.45a.m. i want to sleep!! and i'm still waitin for the god damn file to be downloaded.
tat's it, i'm going back. nitez peeps.
i'm in a CC near my house. stupid connection at home couldn't be access. TMD!! it's been 2 days! i think mom didnt' pay the bill. either way, i'll check it out tmr!
everytime the connection also got problem when i got urgent matter to do. for your info, i have not print my exam docket for malaysian studies paper. thought i could get it from registry today, but the admin staff told me to check my mail again. damn!! can't she just freaking print the exam docket for me?!?! so damn 7 ma fan meh?!
i've been waiting 20 mins for the freaking file to be download aili send to me. mind you, it's just 23KB. and it is taking forever to download into the freaking computer. 'what 7' kinda CC is this?!?! is sl0wer, much slower than dial-up connection.
realize i curse alot?! i think i got affected by a bunch of kids behind me Dota-ing. they curse like nobody business. so hence the tendency to curse as well. plus the frustration that is occurring. grrr....
fark!! 30 mins ledi, and it's not f***ing moving!! WTH!! i doubt this entry will be uploaded into my blog. if it does, good la. if not, i think i'll go crazy.
it's 1.45a.m. i want to sleep!! and i'm still waitin for the god damn file to be downloaded.
tat's it, i'm going back. nitez peeps.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
sometimes in life, especially the people around us, the people that we care most. often enough don't listen to you when you have something to say, or opinions that it's in your head. and often enough, you'll see them banging their head onto the god damn wall over and over again, even though you just ask them to lift their head, and go round the stupid wall.
you could nag till the cows come home from lala land. you could give the most influential speech that even Martin Luther King claps his hands. but none of the words will go into that thick skull of theirs. WHY?!?!
i'm sure you know why.
we've all done it in numerous occasions. friends giving advise, ignore. parents teaching lessons bout life, blah.
is it really that hard... just to listen? interpret, and rationalize just that wee bit. i guess it depends on the other party willing to listen to YOU. you may be their best-est friend ever, but if they chose not to listen. like i said, can't even convince that person with Luther King's speech.
ironically, if that person chose to listen at the very beginning, even whateva their great grandfather's cousin brother's wife's nephew's daughter's step sister's maid said, they will; 'ya hor, why didn't i think of that'. padahal the things you or the maid said is EXACTLY the same!
moral of this post; we listen to what we wanna hear.
you could nag till the cows come home from lala land. you could give the most influential speech that even Martin Luther King claps his hands. but none of the words will go into that thick skull of theirs. WHY?!?!
i'm sure you know why.
we've all done it in numerous occasions. friends giving advise, ignore. parents teaching lessons bout life, blah.
is it really that hard... just to listen? interpret, and rationalize just that wee bit. i guess it depends on the other party willing to listen to YOU. you may be their best-est friend ever, but if they chose not to listen. like i said, can't even convince that person with Luther King's speech.
ironically, if that person chose to listen at the very beginning, even whateva their great grandfather's cousin brother's wife's nephew's daughter's step sister's maid said, they will; 'ya hor, why didn't i think of that'. padahal the things you or the maid said is EXACTLY the same!
moral of this post; we listen to what we wanna hear.
Sunday, September 07, 2008
rantings
friends around me have started working, some are in multi-national companies, some are doing their own business, some are starting to build their own family. and i... i'm still studying, living day by day with the money i earn by myself, commiting part and parcel of the money to different aspects of my life.
i really want to live better, have a better quality of life. but sometimes, we can't choose where we come from. different background, different status, different condition...all these differences makes the journey of one's walking, compare to the person next to you a whole of difference. no matter how hard we work, we'll just suck back into the hole where we struggle to climb up.
why do i need to sacrifice my time in work, instead of putting effort in my studies. solely focusing on it, graduate, and i'm off to the working world, where i could just be like my friends who are doing it right NOW. i hate to be in this situation, balancing between studies and work is so blardy tiring. others can work for fun, earn extra pocket money to buy the things they want, to go to places they desire, to eat food they crave for. and yet, i need to stand and smile to strangers, from morning to night, selling whateva products and promotions.
above context is what a colleague of mine rant bout, and somehow, i feel that we have so much in common.
i really want to live better, have a better quality of life. but sometimes, we can't choose where we come from. different background, different status, different condition...all these differences makes the journey of one's walking, compare to the person next to you a whole of difference. no matter how hard we work, we'll just suck back into the hole where we struggle to climb up.
why do i need to sacrifice my time in work, instead of putting effort in my studies. solely focusing on it, graduate, and i'm off to the working world, where i could just be like my friends who are doing it right NOW. i hate to be in this situation, balancing between studies and work is so blardy tiring. others can work for fun, earn extra pocket money to buy the things they want, to go to places they desire, to eat food they crave for. and yet, i need to stand and smile to strangers, from morning to night, selling whateva products and promotions.
above context is what a colleague of mine rant bout, and somehow, i feel that we have so much in common.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
got up pretty 'early' today. officially it's the first day of class today. haven't even get my engine warmed up. well, was suppose to pick up some stuff in the morning, but end up, not doing it, and postponing till tmr.
anyway, went to take my phone to fix in MV, got a feeling it will cost a bomb. -.- since it's not warranted for dropping it into sea water. should have told the dealer i drop it or something, and it can't work after the first kaboom.
attended my first class of the semester. and i was late. =/ what a good start to this sem rite. wateva. health psych seems ok. for now. there's one group assignment, that will randomly be assign by the tutor. means, you'll work with whoever members you are group. die. worst... i only know a handful of people there. (this is what happen for not mixing around enough) hopefully i can get into a group with nice people to work with.
by the way, year 3 is way harder than i expected. the lecturers really push you to think beyond what is expected of you. to make matter...not so good. our psych department is one of the best in south east asia. so to speak, and so they claim.
after class, rush all the way to kepong for a job briefing. was caught in a jam. no fun. took me 1 and half hours to get there. while on the way, some car bumped into mine. apparently, the driver doze off or something. and i ripped 50 bucks off him. suppose to be more than that, he claims 'bo lui'. which i don't quite believe la. anyway, got his call card, will ripped more from him, when i'm short in cash. hohoho...
anyway, the trainer was late for 2 freaking hours. damn! and i tot i was late. grab something to eat after the briefing at steven's corner. when i'm bout to finish my food, they were showing Love Guru. and i sat there watching it. i can't believe i sat there and watched the whole show with noise and air pollution. most of the time, i was reading the sub-titles instead of listening to what they have to say. anyway, it wasn't as good as i thought it will be. jessica alba was hot. justin timberlake's acting.. so so only la. (my suggestion, just buy DVD or download only la).
wow... wat a wordy post. thank you for reading till this very end. =)
have a nice day
anyway, went to take my phone to fix in MV, got a feeling it will cost a bomb. -.- since it's not warranted for dropping it into sea water. should have told the dealer i drop it or something, and it can't work after the first kaboom.
attended my first class of the semester. and i was late. =/ what a good start to this sem rite. wateva. health psych seems ok. for now. there's one group assignment, that will randomly be assign by the tutor. means, you'll work with whoever members you are group. die. worst... i only know a handful of people there. (this is what happen for not mixing around enough) hopefully i can get into a group with nice people to work with.
by the way, year 3 is way harder than i expected. the lecturers really push you to think beyond what is expected of you. to make matter...not so good. our psych department is one of the best in south east asia. so to speak, and so they claim.
after class, rush all the way to kepong for a job briefing. was caught in a jam. no fun. took me 1 and half hours to get there. while on the way, some car bumped into mine. apparently, the driver doze off or something. and i ripped 50 bucks off him. suppose to be more than that, he claims 'bo lui'. which i don't quite believe la. anyway, got his call card, will ripped more from him, when i'm short in cash. hohoho...
anyway, the trainer was late for 2 freaking hours. damn! and i tot i was late. grab something to eat after the briefing at steven's corner. when i'm bout to finish my food, they were showing Love Guru. and i sat there watching it. i can't believe i sat there and watched the whole show with noise and air pollution. most of the time, i was reading the sub-titles instead of listening to what they have to say. anyway, it wasn't as good as i thought it will be. jessica alba was hot. justin timberlake's acting.. so so only la. (my suggestion, just buy DVD or download only la).
wow... wat a wordy post. thank you for reading till this very end. =)
have a nice day
Thursday, August 28, 2008
observation...
sometimes.. when you're sitting alone in the corner of a shop, there are so many things to see and listen. basically, there are alot of things to observe. enough said.
sitting in front of me, there's this guy preaching bout Jesus to some guy, obviously this guy has many issues troubling him, probably finding someone to talk to?? i'm not sure whether that's the right word. but yea, he is looking for some light in the dark tunnel he walked into.
i wonder what that guy is going through, don't look like mid life crisis, cause takde white hair, and he is not married. issues that are boggling him till a point that he needs to see a pastor? or some guy who preaches teachings of god. anyway, hope he will go through whateva he is going through safely and without much of hassle.
at the far left, there's a family eating and drinking happily around the table. they are laughing while hearing bout what his son has to say. i'm assuming there's some funny incident happened in school earlier today.
i haven't had a outing with my family for a very long time. miss those days that we could sit down together and eat MacD. it won't be 5(my parents, 2 bros and me), surely some of us will be at somewhere, or not free to attend those outing.
behind me, there're a group of working people having their dinner together. interesting conversation, but just listen to parts and parcel of the conversation.
the group of working people, really funny. there's an indian and 2 malays in the group, the rest are chinese. why i say their conversation were funny, imagine chicken, monkeys and itik talking with each other. get the picture? why those animals. (chicken=chinese, monkeys=malays, itik=indians) if u still haven't get it. yea, lame. wateva. my point is, the chinese group is struggling to express themselves properly. my guess those chinese are chinese educated. like duh... (they were using english to converse). see, english really important, and my englandish... sad @.@ really need to buck up.
why so busy body rite. nothing better to do. was left stranded alone, cause someone forgot to call. probably not important, that's why totally forgot bout me.
anyway, i'm goin heading to mike's place to finish up the stupid LAN essay.
sitting in front of me, there's this guy preaching bout Jesus to some guy, obviously this guy has many issues troubling him, probably finding someone to talk to?? i'm not sure whether that's the right word. but yea, he is looking for some light in the dark tunnel he walked into.
i wonder what that guy is going through, don't look like mid life crisis, cause takde white hair, and he is not married. issues that are boggling him till a point that he needs to see a pastor? or some guy who preaches teachings of god. anyway, hope he will go through whateva he is going through safely and without much of hassle.
at the far left, there's a family eating and drinking happily around the table. they are laughing while hearing bout what his son has to say. i'm assuming there's some funny incident happened in school earlier today.
i haven't had a outing with my family for a very long time. miss those days that we could sit down together and eat MacD. it won't be 5(my parents, 2 bros and me), surely some of us will be at somewhere, or not free to attend those outing.
behind me, there're a group of working people having their dinner together. interesting conversation, but just listen to parts and parcel of the conversation.
the group of working people, really funny. there's an indian and 2 malays in the group, the rest are chinese. why i say their conversation were funny, imagine chicken, monkeys and itik talking with each other. get the picture? why those animals. (chicken=chinese, monkeys=malays, itik=indians) if u still haven't get it. yea, lame. wateva. my point is, the chinese group is struggling to express themselves properly. my guess those chinese are chinese educated. like duh... (they were using english to converse). see, english really important, and my englandish... sad @.@ really need to buck up.
why so busy body rite. nothing better to do. was left stranded alone, cause someone forgot to call. probably not important, that's why totally forgot bout me.
anyway, i'm goin heading to mike's place to finish up the stupid LAN essay.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
forever and ever part 1
'Ken**** loves L**Y*** forever.'
'I love you forever, and never to be separate.'
'Your presence fill my every void that is been left unfilled for eternity, until you came along.'
such quotes... we often see it in movies, when the leading male actor woulds say such lovely things to the leading female actor. we read it in novels, where the writer type in words that would melt anyone who read it. we listen to songs where the lyrics just set u in an ambiance mood.
but do we mean it when we say it? at least, do u mean it? well, the question is more like does 'forever and ever' exits anymore in this modern, realistic days, where we are shadowed by wealth, power, and selfish desires.
'true love and forever and ever doesn't exist, it's just lies and it blinds us with words that makes u feel assure at that very moment. promises will always be broken.' and this is coming from a person who once belief in true love, and forever and ever.
it saddens when events occurs that literally crush one's dream. we get disappointed when things are not in line with the ones we heard in bedtime stories told by mommies and daddies when we were little.
and yet, time and time again, reality over-whelm our pure and innocent dreams. a dream that we try to pursue, with the belief system that has implanted into every cell, hoping that our childhood dream might just happen. that is until reality smack us right at our face. and slowly, we begun to lose hope, every cell in the body died with disappointment.
so, could we blame those who chose security over pure love? i think is fair to say that we couldn't.
'I love you forever, and never to be separate.'
'Your presence fill my every void that is been left unfilled for eternity, until you came along.'
such quotes... we often see it in movies, when the leading male actor woulds say such lovely things to the leading female actor. we read it in novels, where the writer type in words that would melt anyone who read it. we listen to songs where the lyrics just set u in an ambiance mood.
but do we mean it when we say it? at least, do u mean it? well, the question is more like does 'forever and ever' exits anymore in this modern, realistic days, where we are shadowed by wealth, power, and selfish desires.
'true love and forever and ever doesn't exist, it's just lies and it blinds us with words that makes u feel assure at that very moment. promises will always be broken.' and this is coming from a person who once belief in true love, and forever and ever.
it saddens when events occurs that literally crush one's dream. we get disappointed when things are not in line with the ones we heard in bedtime stories told by mommies and daddies when we were little.
and yet, time and time again, reality over-whelm our pure and innocent dreams. a dream that we try to pursue, with the belief system that has implanted into every cell, hoping that our childhood dream might just happen. that is until reality smack us right at our face. and slowly, we begun to lose hope, every cell in the body died with disappointment.
so, could we blame those who chose security over pure love? i think is fair to say that we couldn't.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
rain
as the song is played on air,
'rain drops falling on my head...'
i started humming as the song goes on,
so happened it was raining as well.
i like rain.
they say rain is a sign of sadness, sorrow, and pain.
but i have enjoy much happier experiences under the rain,
and there are not so happy experiences as well.
i've jogged under the rain, training for upcoming competition,
i've played under the rain, with fellow 'gang' while i was little,
i've walked under the rain, with the ones i care and love,
i've cried under the rain, with my heart so heavy, i can barely take another step.
i like rain,
because it gives a sense of serene feeling,
when the wind blows, it sends cold shivers down the spine,
and it just gives me a calm feeling,
and somehow give us hope, that after every dark and heavy storm,
there would be sunshine and rainbow shinning down upon us.
'rain drops falling on my head...'
i started humming as the song goes on,
so happened it was raining as well.
i like rain.
they say rain is a sign of sadness, sorrow, and pain.
but i have enjoy much happier experiences under the rain,
and there are not so happy experiences as well.
i've jogged under the rain, training for upcoming competition,
i've played under the rain, with fellow 'gang' while i was little,
i've walked under the rain, with the ones i care and love,
i've cried under the rain, with my heart so heavy, i can barely take another step.
i like rain,
because it gives a sense of serene feeling,
when the wind blows, it sends cold shivers down the spine,
and it just gives me a calm feeling,
and somehow give us hope, that after every dark and heavy storm,
there would be sunshine and rainbow shinning down upon us.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
am i really that scary? or am i too cool to talk to, too hot maybe??
but seriously... why are people so weird that they want to ask you something, or wanna get to know bout you. and there is always a third party involved. i mean, even small kids of 7, 8 years old have more balls (for guys) and more brave (for gals) than us grown ups. is it really that hard to ask a person for direction, or their names or whateva shit you want to know about... i mean is it really that hard?
ok, i can understand if you are not in the mood to talk or something, and you just push your friend forward to ask. but every freaking time?!? come on!!
it makes me feel like i'm an outcast, or there's a big f***ing scar on my face, that the sight is too unbearable for you to look at. am i really that horrible? or is it because i'm old, (as some of you claim) i know it is memang the fact. but still??
wtf is wrong with me? or you! that you can't just freaking ask or talk to me?!?!
but seriously... why are people so weird that they want to ask you something, or wanna get to know bout you. and there is always a third party involved. i mean, even small kids of 7, 8 years old have more balls (for guys) and more brave (for gals) than us grown ups. is it really that hard to ask a person for direction, or their names or whateva shit you want to know about... i mean is it really that hard?
ok, i can understand if you are not in the mood to talk or something, and you just push your friend forward to ask. but every freaking time?!? come on!!
it makes me feel like i'm an outcast, or there's a big f***ing scar on my face, that the sight is too unbearable for you to look at. am i really that horrible? or is it because i'm old, (as some of you claim) i know it is memang the fact. but still??
wtf is wrong with me? or you! that you can't just freaking ask or talk to me?!?!
fireworks
you know when during festive season, where fireworks are displayed almost everywhere. beautiful rite... take the most recent display shown in tv, where china lid up Beijing with fireworks across the games village. spectacular huh...
okok... indeed it's great. but we don't want to compare with them with the on-going event held in Putrajaya. their standard is beyond measurable compare with firework lid up here. they probably spend hundreds of millions doing their stuff, and the competition held here, probably hundreds of thousands.
cut the crap... i do suck in introducing an event and informing things.
anyway, there's a fireworks display held in Putrajaya. it's sorta competition between 4/5 countries. the next show will be show tmr, show time is 10pm. so, anyone interested? write in those reading my blog are invited. leave a comment to indicate u want to go. and will try to arrange something...
if takde... so be it la. =)
for more info on what's it bout: click here
okok... indeed it's great. but we don't want to compare with them with the on-going event held in Putrajaya. their standard is beyond measurable compare with firework lid up here. they probably spend hundreds of millions doing their stuff, and the competition held here, probably hundreds of thousands.
cut the crap... i do suck in introducing an event and informing things.
anyway, there's a fireworks display held in Putrajaya. it's sorta competition between 4/5 countries. the next show will be show tmr, show time is 10pm. so, anyone interested? write in those reading my blog are invited. leave a comment to indicate u want to go. and will try to arrange something...
if takde... so be it la. =)
for more info on what's it bout: click here
Monday, August 18, 2008
Sunday, August 17, 2008
jobs
below is just a couple of jobs that kept me busy for the past 2 weeks. kinda fun.. but tiring like hell.
warning: it'll be a very pictorial post. good for u, no need to read so much of my rantings. =)
Digi annual event cum annual dinner cum wateva they suppose to have. more than 400 participants.
building their defence for battle later on.
still building. d guy on the right of the pic (it's an a$$hole, he just can't stop scolding his colleagues) even games marshals pun marah. basically, the entire red team gave us game marshal shit load of trouble.
a hungry man is an angry man. white shirt: 'don't mess with me k, gimme my food!'
they say sports unite everyone; i say food brings us all together. see.. bersatu-padu gile.
ask u to work, u fool around. not pro at all!
they serve nandos, A&W, 1901 for lunch, and they have Tony Roma's and free flow of beer for dinner.
see what i mean, united when there's a feast.
Digi work environment. i love it. i heard that u don't have to wear formal to work. that's wat i like!
they even have a freaking water fall!!
Nural Milk Powder launching. face painting, or rather arm painting.
brand ambassodor, super-heroes and our agent.
basically, we just deal with kids. aloooott of kids. tiring, but it was really fun. btw, the MC sucks!
on going event, mystery shopper for a new ciggerates brand, Wind/ MiNe.
what i'm suppose to do??
just go into the shop, ask for a packet of ciggerates, if the owner or whoeva recommend the new brand, they will win prizes.
happy owners who won a handphone.
and so 'du lan' owner who thinks i cheated on them.
just admit that ur slow/retard/dumb or wateva it is, rather than scold the shit out of me. one look at my face also know that i don't smoke la. and i give hints like damn obvious. WRONG! is damn 7 obvious!!
warning: it'll be a very pictorial post. good for u, no need to read so much of my rantings. =)
Digi annual event cum annual dinner cum wateva they suppose to have. more than 400 participants.
building their defence for battle later on.
still building. d guy on the right of the pic (it's an a$$hole, he just can't stop scolding his colleagues) even games marshals pun marah. basically, the entire red team gave us game marshal shit load of trouble.
a hungry man is an angry man. white shirt: 'don't mess with me k, gimme my food!'
they say sports unite everyone; i say food brings us all together. see.. bersatu-padu gile.
ask u to work, u fool around. not pro at all!
they serve nandos, A&W, 1901 for lunch, and they have Tony Roma's and free flow of beer for dinner.
see what i mean, united when there's a feast.
Digi work environment. i love it. i heard that u don't have to wear formal to work. that's wat i like!
they even have a freaking water fall!!
Nural Milk Powder launching. face painting, or rather arm painting.
brand ambassodor, super-heroes and our agent.
basically, we just deal with kids. aloooott of kids. tiring, but it was really fun. btw, the MC sucks!
on going event, mystery shopper for a new ciggerates brand, Wind/ MiNe.
what i'm suppose to do??
just go into the shop, ask for a packet of ciggerates, if the owner or whoeva recommend the new brand, they will win prizes.
happy owners who won a handphone.
and so 'du lan' owner who thinks i cheated on them.
just admit that ur slow/retard/dumb or wateva it is, rather than scold the shit out of me. one look at my face also know that i don't smoke la. and i give hints like damn obvious. WRONG! is damn 7 obvious!!
Saturday, August 16, 2008
10 statements
was nominated by aili to write 10 statements...
1) i've been working non-stop for the past 2 and half weeks. seriously in need of a break.
2) mom says i'm getting fatter, but the matter of fact, i'm losing weight. =.=
3) i'm getting darker, as brown as my blog skin, maybe darker.
4) i'm still thinking whether i should take 5 or 6 subjects this coming semester.
5) i still haven't finish my book. =|
6) trying very hard to think of the next 4 statements.
7) my room is so messy, is like a garbage junk (minus the smelly/ gross/ horrible smell u smell from Kepong garbage centre)
8) last week i left RM11.59 in my account. the least amount of money ever! (once is enough)
9) i've been stuck in statement no.9 for the past 15 mins. oh ya, tmr is a rest day for me too!
10) suddenly there's more than 1 statement i want to put in... wat the hell! i'll just go for; hope chong wei will win a gold for m'sia.
that's bout it.... 10 statements. i don't know who reads my blog. so, not gonna nominate anyone. if nominate pun, don't know whether they'll do not. and i wouldn't want to kill ur brain cells. =)
1) i've been working non-stop for the past 2 and half weeks. seriously in need of a break.
2) mom says i'm getting fatter, but the matter of fact, i'm losing weight. =.=
3) i'm getting darker, as brown as my blog skin, maybe darker.
4) i'm still thinking whether i should take 5 or 6 subjects this coming semester.
5) i still haven't finish my book. =|
6) trying very hard to think of the next 4 statements.
7) my room is so messy, is like a garbage junk (minus the smelly/ gross/ horrible smell u smell from Kepong garbage centre)
8) last week i left RM11.59 in my account. the least amount of money ever! (once is enough)
9) i've been stuck in statement no.9 for the past 15 mins. oh ya, tmr is a rest day for me too!
10) suddenly there's more than 1 statement i want to put in... wat the hell! i'll just go for; hope chong wei will win a gold for m'sia.
that's bout it.... 10 statements. i don't know who reads my blog. so, not gonna nominate anyone. if nominate pun, don't know whether they'll do not. and i wouldn't want to kill ur brain cells. =)
Thursday, August 14, 2008
'then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free'
read it from my friend's facebook profile.... i think it's a quote from a bible.
hmm... from what i could interpret from it. truth hurts. and many of us don't want to accept the truth, sometimes, somewhere... i mean at any point in time. we humans, just like to avoid/hide the truth. people from the older days hide truth to save the kings pride, the higher monarchy, whoever that is involve just to cover whateva bad deeds they have sinned.
so y come up with a teaching that is not being practice since the time of christ. i'm assuming that those people during those time were more 'naive'? more well taught?? i don't know. they seems to follow more blindly than we think they were. otherwise, why would one man's command bring shivers down the spinal cord of every men in the court room, and backyard that is full of military soldiers waiting to receive order from the highest hierachy. are they just pure blunt? or they are just living in fear??
i think everyone have senses, don't tell me those people 5 thousands years ago, they don't. otherwise, how would they come up with a design or a thought that is so applicable that could last for hundreds of years. so, to say they don't, it's just pure plain from those critiques.
so back to the question, why we need to hide the truth?/ to tell 'white lies' to so call protect your love ones? or is it a cool thing to hide the truth from the people involved, so that it makes you more superior? because information holds an upper hand on those who doesn't.
imagine you are doing some under-ground experiement, and no one in the world knows, suddenly you just pop up from some hole and announce that you could heal some patients that diagnosed with AIDS. surely, u'll become powerful, because every party, every human race will come down on their knees begging for that cure.
okok.. not so exaggerate... coming back to the reality we face from our daily lives. government hiding facts and truths about the real thing. love ones that hide things from u. and if u know the truth, will that set you free??
for us people, i think most of us will just sulk in those situations, knowing the fact about the truth. the most amazing part is that we don't want to accept the truth, even though we know truth hurts us.
i think knowing the truth doesn't really set u free, but knowing the truth just teaching u to adapt to the situation at hand, and moving along and deciding what we should do next. truth memang hurts, and there's nothing much we can do. i would prefer u tell me right at my face, so i know what i've done wrong, probably it will hurt a lil... but what's there to lose right.
sorry to those who feel offended if i critque the bible or whatsoever. it's just solely my opinion. if u can't accept it, so be it. bah! if u wanna discuss bout it, boleh juga. =)
read it from my friend's facebook profile.... i think it's a quote from a bible.
hmm... from what i could interpret from it. truth hurts. and many of us don't want to accept the truth, sometimes, somewhere... i mean at any point in time. we humans, just like to avoid/hide the truth. people from the older days hide truth to save the kings pride, the higher monarchy, whoever that is involve just to cover whateva bad deeds they have sinned.
so y come up with a teaching that is not being practice since the time of christ. i'm assuming that those people during those time were more 'naive'? more well taught?? i don't know. they seems to follow more blindly than we think they were. otherwise, why would one man's command bring shivers down the spinal cord of every men in the court room, and backyard that is full of military soldiers waiting to receive order from the highest hierachy. are they just pure blunt? or they are just living in fear??
i think everyone have senses, don't tell me those people 5 thousands years ago, they don't. otherwise, how would they come up with a design or a thought that is so applicable that could last for hundreds of years. so, to say they don't, it's just pure plain from those critiques.
so back to the question, why we need to hide the truth?/ to tell 'white lies' to so call protect your love ones? or is it a cool thing to hide the truth from the people involved, so that it makes you more superior? because information holds an upper hand on those who doesn't.
imagine you are doing some under-ground experiement, and no one in the world knows, suddenly you just pop up from some hole and announce that you could heal some patients that diagnosed with AIDS. surely, u'll become powerful, because every party, every human race will come down on their knees begging for that cure.
okok.. not so exaggerate... coming back to the reality we face from our daily lives. government hiding facts and truths about the real thing. love ones that hide things from u. and if u know the truth, will that set you free??
for us people, i think most of us will just sulk in those situations, knowing the fact about the truth. the most amazing part is that we don't want to accept the truth, even though we know truth hurts us.
i think knowing the truth doesn't really set u free, but knowing the truth just teaching u to adapt to the situation at hand, and moving along and deciding what we should do next. truth memang hurts, and there's nothing much we can do. i would prefer u tell me right at my face, so i know what i've done wrong, probably it will hurt a lil... but what's there to lose right.
sorry to those who feel offended if i critque the bible or whatsoever. it's just solely my opinion. if u can't accept it, so be it. bah! if u wanna discuss bout it, boleh juga. =)
don't mess with the Zohan edit*
Zohan was hilarious. it's a movie not much of a story line, if u wanna watch a movie just for the laugh of it, i suggest u watch it. it's something like Stephan Chow back in the old days. most of the scenes are kinda impossible. as i say, just the fun of it. don't wanna say much la.. spoliers nanti. so yea.. go watch it. if ur in a sad mood, emo, or just plain happy. it could make ur day even happier, or happy for that matter.
'Zohan not out yet wut...' as many of u might say.. yea memang not out yet in the cinema. wait till next week la. i went to watch the premiere. hee... (thx to WS) =)
tmr will be out the whole day again. -.- so 'bok' also don't know for wut...
and i realize this post kinda crap. sentences not complete, and takde flow langsung. aiks.. i write things memang no flow one la. dennng...
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mooncake festival is coming up... surely there will be lanterns, chinese tea, and what's mooncake festival without mooncakes. my friend's company alias with tai thong restaurant. and manage to get a discount. i think around 30%. not bad rite. especially nowadays, the mooncakes are hella expensive.
i've ordered some. if ur interested, u can come over to my hse to makan mooncakes la... only 2 boxes. if u are kind enough, u can bring over urs, and we can share share la. =)
i've ordered some. if ur interested, u can come over to my hse to makan mooncakes la... only 2 boxes. if u are kind enough, u can bring over urs, and we can share share la. =)
Monday, August 11, 2008
somethin in common??
would u like ur partner to be compatible? or would u like ur partner to have opposite taste from u? as they say opposite attracts. or something else other than stated above...
was just wondering... cuz just know yum cha with Mike and Mandy (yea, she can come out at nite! miracle!), and we were talking bout each other ideal partner would be, not from ur own perspective, but from ur friends, and people around u. what kinda person would match u as a person, and ur characteristic, and what not.
cuz some people like their parther to be totally opposite from them, be it personality wise, behavior, even the outlook of their partner. i got friends whom partner are just the other side of the coin from them, and they get along perfectly fine. and yet, some like their partner to be as similar as they could be possibly be. is best if they come out from the same 'brand' but different 'kilang'.
so, what do u think? which do u prefer?
i think i'll go for someone, who has something in common, not exactly similar, but just some aspect that we have in common. i wouldn't want the gal to be same as me, it will be boorrringg... i don't mind routine, but... imagine both of u think alike all the time. have the same taste, have the same personality, have the same EVERYTHING. siennya... maybe some of u can la, but not me. =)
was just wondering... cuz just know yum cha with Mike and Mandy (yea, she can come out at nite! miracle!), and we were talking bout each other ideal partner would be, not from ur own perspective, but from ur friends, and people around u. what kinda person would match u as a person, and ur characteristic, and what not.
cuz some people like their parther to be totally opposite from them, be it personality wise, behavior, even the outlook of their partner. i got friends whom partner are just the other side of the coin from them, and they get along perfectly fine. and yet, some like their partner to be as similar as they could be possibly be. is best if they come out from the same 'brand' but different 'kilang'.
so, what do u think? which do u prefer?
i think i'll go for someone, who has something in common, not exactly similar, but just some aspect that we have in common. i wouldn't want the gal to be same as me, it will be boorrringg... i don't mind routine, but... imagine both of u think alike all the time. have the same taste, have the same personality, have the same EVERYTHING. siennya... maybe some of u can la, but not me. =)
Saturday, August 09, 2008
update
aiks.. i miss the 080808 posting date. *&^%$
anyway, was too tired to write anything yesterday. but i still went for games yesterday nite. call me siao. but my hands were just dreading to hold the racket. (not a stick)!! i missed out on the opening ceremony of the 29th Olympic in Beijing. aiks.. it sounded like i had the chance to enter the Bird Nest Stadium,... heh... what i mean was the tv program that was showing in astro. yea, i rahter play badminton, than watch this eventful day. especially some of my ancestors great great great grandchildren MIGHT be performing. maybe...
i've been working noon-stop for 2 weeks or more. hadn't had the time to really rest. first of, went to Singapore, but before that, was working in a roadshow. came back from the small lil island, was working again. last week was even better, 6 days straight back to back roadshows. then went down to JB for a couple of days. the next day start work again. phew.. finally get a chance to sleep peacefully on a beautiful saturday morning. heh
i haven't get the furnitures i saw in Ikea. =.= still waiting for money to roll in. how could if one day u went to the bank, and large amount of money suddenly appear in your account.
speaking of bank accounts. i have this friend who likes to show off. now and then, he likes to send me his bank account statements and credit card statements. i don't know what's the purpose of him doing so, but my guess is just to purely show off laa. what kinda of people does that?? i wonder... eh!! ain't i just found one, and he's my friend. =/
anyway, just a lil update on myself. those who say i'm emo-ing, actually i'm not. maybe for a couple of days few weeks ago. other than that, those other post were purely random thoughts contruct into a poem rhythm way. ^^ peace!
one more thing, let the games begin!! woohoo...
i type the entire post without my specs. if there's any typo, or things doesn't sound right to u, just bare with it la or go figure.. ciaoz!
anyway, was too tired to write anything yesterday. but i still went for games yesterday nite. call me siao. but my hands were just dreading to hold the racket. (not a stick)!! i missed out on the opening ceremony of the 29th Olympic in Beijing. aiks.. it sounded like i had the chance to enter the Bird Nest Stadium,... heh... what i mean was the tv program that was showing in astro. yea, i rahter play badminton, than watch this eventful day. especially some of my ancestors great great great grandchildren MIGHT be performing. maybe...
i've been working noon-stop for 2 weeks or more. hadn't had the time to really rest. first of, went to Singapore, but before that, was working in a roadshow. came back from the small lil island, was working again. last week was even better, 6 days straight back to back roadshows. then went down to JB for a couple of days. the next day start work again. phew.. finally get a chance to sleep peacefully on a beautiful saturday morning. heh
i haven't get the furnitures i saw in Ikea. =.= still waiting for money to roll in. how could if one day u went to the bank, and large amount of money suddenly appear in your account.
speaking of bank accounts. i have this friend who likes to show off. now and then, he likes to send me his bank account statements and credit card statements. i don't know what's the purpose of him doing so, but my guess is just to purely show off laa. what kinda of people does that?? i wonder... eh!! ain't i just found one, and he's my friend. =/
anyway, just a lil update on myself. those who say i'm emo-ing, actually i'm not. maybe for a couple of days few weeks ago. other than that, those other post were purely random thoughts contruct into a poem rhythm way. ^^ peace!
one more thing, let the games begin!! woohoo...
i type the entire post without my specs. if there's any typo, or things doesn't sound right to u, just bare with it la or go figure.. ciaoz!
Monday, August 04, 2008
why
why smile when your smile is not genuine,
why cry when no tears is rolling off your cheek,
why laugh when no jokes tickles you,
why sober when wine seems no effect,
why fall when no one's there to catch you.
why cry when no tears is rolling off your cheek,
why laugh when no jokes tickles you,
why sober when wine seems no effect,
why fall when no one's there to catch you.
Friday, August 01, 2008
miss
they say what you wish for, usually you'll get it.
i didn't wish for it... i think.
but still, i got it.
i think i miss you... that's why.
take care.
i didn't wish for it... i think.
but still, i got it.
i think i miss you... that's why.
take care.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
looking in your eyes, i see there's something,
and sometimes i feel there's a thing.
but in the end, there's just one thing,
and one thing only...
NOTHING.
it's 4 in the morning,
just like what gwen stefani used to sing,
sometimes i feel nothing,
but most of the time, i could feel there's this thing.
it may rhymes like a poetry,
just like the dancing tree.
guess i should start to flee,
wouldn't want to be your bumble bee.
first time is always something,
the next time is nothing.
affectionate is not everything,
but it's always something.
and sometimes i feel there's a thing.
but in the end, there's just one thing,
and one thing only...
NOTHING.
it's 4 in the morning,
just like what gwen stefani used to sing,
sometimes i feel nothing,
but most of the time, i could feel there's this thing.
it may rhymes like a poetry,
just like the dancing tree.
guess i should start to flee,
wouldn't want to be your bumble bee.
first time is always something,
the next time is nothing.
affectionate is not everything,
but it's always something.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Friday, July 25, 2008
singapore getaway
was on a run away for a couple of days to Singapore and Batam. i must say, it isn't spectacular as it must sound or feel like. just a short trip down to our neighbouring country. Singapore is just a country like Malaysia. but it is way much cleaner and more systematic. i'm always ammuse by the transport system and certain things that the government run their country.
the competitiveness of the citizens makes them grow even faster than many countries around this region. you may say is their 'kiasu-ness' that is pushing them forward. but hey... it's working. you can't complain much, but ahve admiration of them.
oh well... their city is just like our. shopping almost everywhere. what they lack is the historical background that non exsistance to them. 1963 isin't much of a ulu and kampung-ish era k...
on the first day, meet up with michael at night with christian and xiang. so happen they were all there. just a short yum cha session at Orchard road. then head on the Mustafa shopping mall, it is the only mall in Singapore that operates 24 hours a day. many things to buy, and you can go check it out.
2nd day, went to Batam, Indonesia with my friend. he's been bugging me since last year that he wanted to go, but never had the chance. and i sorta turn him down a couple of times. so yea, it was an opportunity, for him. Batam claims to have cheaper things than Singapore and famous for their prostitute and massage. and no! i didnt do what u thought of! the taxi driver laugh at us, when we say we wanted to go there for shopping. he said: 'no man goes Batam for shopping k!!' u looking at 2, @#^%$# idiot! disclaimer: i didn't engage in any sexual actitivity with the locals there. just body massage, which is pretty good. yea... nth else. seriously.
vivo city is nothing to shout about. all the shops are pretty much the same as we got in our very own megamall. before that, did some catching up with Min Chunn, so we had breakfast with him and his family and his gf. didnt' expect everyone to come. anyway, it was his convo on that day. finally flipping another phase of life for him. Congrats man! after that, went to meet my youngest bro, Eugene. he was having a competition there. shouldn't have went there, was robbed of 50 bucks! claims that mom didnt give him enough allowance. kids nowadays..
all in all, it was a pretty much hectic. rushing here and there.
grr... and i need to bath now to head out for my stupid malaysian studies class.
the competitiveness of the citizens makes them grow even faster than many countries around this region. you may say is their 'kiasu-ness' that is pushing them forward. but hey... it's working. you can't complain much, but ahve admiration of them.
oh well... their city is just like our. shopping almost everywhere. what they lack is the historical background that non exsistance to them. 1963 isin't much of a ulu and kampung-ish era k...
on the first day, meet up with michael at night with christian and xiang. so happen they were all there. just a short yum cha session at Orchard road. then head on the Mustafa shopping mall, it is the only mall in Singapore that operates 24 hours a day. many things to buy, and you can go check it out.
2nd day, went to Batam, Indonesia with my friend. he's been bugging me since last year that he wanted to go, but never had the chance. and i sorta turn him down a couple of times. so yea, it was an opportunity, for him. Batam claims to have cheaper things than Singapore and famous for their prostitute and massage. and no! i didnt do what u thought of! the taxi driver laugh at us, when we say we wanted to go there for shopping. he said: 'no man goes Batam for shopping k!!' u looking at 2, @#^%$# idiot! disclaimer: i didn't engage in any sexual actitivity with the locals there. just body massage, which is pretty good. yea... nth else. seriously.
vivo city is nothing to shout about. all the shops are pretty much the same as we got in our very own megamall. before that, did some catching up with Min Chunn, so we had breakfast with him and his family and his gf. didnt' expect everyone to come. anyway, it was his convo on that day. finally flipping another phase of life for him. Congrats man! after that, went to meet my youngest bro, Eugene. he was having a competition there. shouldn't have went there, was robbed of 50 bucks! claims that mom didnt give him enough allowance. kids nowadays..
all in all, it was a pretty much hectic. rushing here and there.
grr... and i need to bath now to head out for my stupid malaysian studies class.
Monday, July 21, 2008
over the weekend.
was working for LG over the weekend, promoting their air-con in Carrefour, MV. as usual, the first day of a roadshow tend to be a lil not so organize. especially u work in a hypermarket. need to load the stuff at the loading bay. need to find the staff entrance. need to get permission. 1 word; troublesome. another thing if u work in hypermarkets; boring.
this time round, got another promoter teman. so, not that boring. her name is Davina. i thought she is indian or something. anyway, never really bother la. be it chinese, malay, or indian, or indon. whateva. anyway, i suppose to meet her outside of carrefour, so when i got to her, she was sitting down. i thought cannot be. Davina.... should be indian rite. manatau, is a chinese. at 1 point of time, i thought she China mari. cuz she is damn fair. the first thing i told her, she got a very indian-ish name. after i said hi, of cuz.
what so special bout this gal rite. she can frown 25 hours a day. seriously. everytime if i'm talking to her, or she is stoning there. i could she see her frown. never once she don't frown. realize the 4 sentences i just wrote, there are 3 'frown'. include this. 4. that's how frequent she frown. 5!
don't wanna talk bout her anymore, later u will be saying i'm interested in her. which i'm NOT!
went to 1U today, after sending the stuff back to the office. was suppose to watch dark knight. in the end, didnt manage to, cuz my fren here, got errands to do later. so just lepak, window shopping, and went to Waffles to makan. bought 2 t-shirts.
continue jalan-jalan. and this fren of mine keep asking me to go if i got things to do. padahal, i got nothing to do. so, i just balik lah.. takkan wanna so thick skin rite. anyway, before i left. i enter G2000. try on some shirts, but none suites me. by the time i knew it, i was entering every shop that i came across.
while walking aimlessly, Kelsen called. (seriously i was walking ALONE). i saw my fren, yea again. didnt say hi. cuz... u see, my skin kinda thin. so that probably explains why. =)
wanted to watch Hellboy2, but kinda tired. so, just balik je. tat's how my day and weekend whoossh past me.
this time round, got another promoter teman. so, not that boring. her name is Davina. i thought she is indian or something. anyway, never really bother la. be it chinese, malay, or indian, or indon. whateva. anyway, i suppose to meet her outside of carrefour, so when i got to her, she was sitting down. i thought cannot be. Davina.... should be indian rite. manatau, is a chinese. at 1 point of time, i thought she China mari. cuz she is damn fair. the first thing i told her, she got a very indian-ish name. after i said hi, of cuz.
what so special bout this gal rite. she can frown 25 hours a day. seriously. everytime if i'm talking to her, or she is stoning there. i could she see her frown. never once she don't frown. realize the 4 sentences i just wrote, there are 3 'frown'. include this. 4. that's how frequent she frown. 5!
don't wanna talk bout her anymore, later u will be saying i'm interested in her. which i'm NOT!
went to 1U today, after sending the stuff back to the office. was suppose to watch dark knight. in the end, didnt manage to, cuz my fren here, got errands to do later. so just lepak, window shopping, and went to Waffles to makan. bought 2 t-shirts.
continue jalan-jalan. and this fren of mine keep asking me to go if i got things to do. padahal, i got nothing to do. so, i just balik lah.. takkan wanna so thick skin rite. anyway, before i left. i enter G2000. try on some shirts, but none suites me. by the time i knew it, i was entering every shop that i came across.
while walking aimlessly, Kelsen called. (seriously i was walking ALONE). i saw my fren, yea again. didnt say hi. cuz... u see, my skin kinda thin. so that probably explains why. =)
wanted to watch Hellboy2, but kinda tired. so, just balik je. tat's how my day and weekend whoossh past me.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
today... i mean yesterday... wasn't as smooth as i expected. certain things got out of hand, guesses were wrong, instinct totally out. couldn't say is a bad day thou. just a day i have to live without much joy. hope to have a better one tomorrow. i mean TODAY. blah. doesn't matter. what matter is, wake up. things will be good, smooth sailing, and positive throughout the day, follow by next, follow by next... day, week, month, years... ^^ bit tamak, and melampau.
sigh... how good it would be, if we could take control of things that we want to. but sometimes, things are just out of our hands, out of our control. expectation is what leads us to have the urge to control what's in front of us.
on the other hand... no expectation, no goals. if takde goal, how to know where to steer to which direction.
hmm... let god decide? if let god decide, then why take control at the very place right. do we want to have a life that is already been set upon a path for us to take. just like the river flow from the top of the mountain till the open sea.
this is leading no where... gud nitez
sigh... how good it would be, if we could take control of things that we want to. but sometimes, things are just out of our hands, out of our control. expectation is what leads us to have the urge to control what's in front of us.
on the other hand... no expectation, no goals. if takde goal, how to know where to steer to which direction.
hmm... let god decide? if let god decide, then why take control at the very place right. do we want to have a life that is already been set upon a path for us to take. just like the river flow from the top of the mountain till the open sea.
this is leading no where... gud nitez
Friday, July 18, 2008
circadian
just woke up not long ago, actually i was force to wake up laa. had a really weird dream. @.@
hmm.. the dream goes something like this. i was in this gang, a triad gang in some kampung. so u know what triad gangs normally do la, they bully ppl, and take money from them. but funny thing thou, i don't do the dirty work, neither i ask my followers to do. i just a plain good ole triad member. enough said.
anyway, one day i was in the bus, u know la. kampung ma. probably our boss no money to buy car or something. back to the story, i suddenly had this fight with my boss. we get off the bus as soon as it's near our 'headquarters' surprisingly thou, our headquarters was damn big. the boss was renovating the base. we were still quarelling, in the heat of moment, my boss ask me to go down the a pud full of mud and cement. how could he rite, i was his right hand man lor. as i was taking out my shoes, Nike okay. he pour his teh ais that he da pau from the kopi shop over me. not once but twice. whoa.. embarrass me in front of the gang. so, i hit him in the face, his face was damn disgusting and horrible, terrible, u feel like hitting a few more times.
then suddenly, the scene end up in front of police station, where we had fights, the boss came up with AK-47, bazooka, grenade and all. scary. so i tot the safest place is to get into the police station la. manatau, he station shooting at those police, and bombing their quaters and base. siao!
in the end, i also bueh tahan of the dream and i forcefully wake myself up. -.- and it was 6am!! =.=
thx to the late nights and stress during the sem. i screw up my whole circadian system. i sleep 4-6 hours a night, during my holidays! and have all these kinda weird dreams. omgbbqwtf.
anyway, i force myself to fall back to sleep, but to no vail, i woke up at 9am. so, i thought wat the heck, i went for a jog. it barely lasted for 20mins. last time..... forget it, talk bout last time, i really can vomit blood thinking bout now. interestingly, as i jogged around the park, those aunties and uncles were walking their dogs, cats, or watering the plants gave the kinda look 'leng zhai, u no need to work, or study meh.' so, i look back with; 'no! i'm a multi-millionaire who sit at home do nothing at the same time screw up my circadian system' kinda look. end/
guess i need to work out a lil more often. maybe... twice a week. ha!
side track@ my dog just pee on me. stupid dog. arggh!
hmm.. the dream goes something like this. i was in this gang, a triad gang in some kampung. so u know what triad gangs normally do la, they bully ppl, and take money from them. but funny thing thou, i don't do the dirty work, neither i ask my followers to do. i just a plain good ole triad member. enough said.
anyway, one day i was in the bus, u know la. kampung ma. probably our boss no money to buy car or something. back to the story, i suddenly had this fight with my boss. we get off the bus as soon as it's near our 'headquarters' surprisingly thou, our headquarters was damn big. the boss was renovating the base. we were still quarelling, in the heat of moment, my boss ask me to go down the a pud full of mud and cement. how could he rite, i was his right hand man lor. as i was taking out my shoes, Nike okay. he pour his teh ais that he da pau from the kopi shop over me. not once but twice. whoa.. embarrass me in front of the gang. so, i hit him in the face, his face was damn disgusting and horrible, terrible, u feel like hitting a few more times.
then suddenly, the scene end up in front of police station, where we had fights, the boss came up with AK-47, bazooka, grenade and all. scary. so i tot the safest place is to get into the police station la. manatau, he station shooting at those police, and bombing their quaters and base. siao!
in the end, i also bueh tahan of the dream and i forcefully wake myself up. -.- and it was 6am!! =.=
thx to the late nights and stress during the sem. i screw up my whole circadian system. i sleep 4-6 hours a night, during my holidays! and have all these kinda weird dreams. omgbbqwtf.
anyway, i force myself to fall back to sleep, but to no vail, i woke up at 9am. so, i thought wat the heck, i went for a jog. it barely lasted for 20mins. last time..... forget it, talk bout last time, i really can vomit blood thinking bout now. interestingly, as i jogged around the park, those aunties and uncles were walking their dogs, cats, or watering the plants gave the kinda look 'leng zhai, u no need to work, or study meh.' so, i look back with; 'no! i'm a multi-millionaire who sit at home do nothing at the same time screw up my circadian system' kinda look. end/
guess i need to work out a lil more often. maybe... twice a week. ha!
side track@ my dog just pee on me. stupid dog. arggh!
Monday, July 14, 2008
hi
seriously, i don't know what to blog. many things happen, many thoughts in my mind. yet i don't know how to put it into words.
for the sake of posting...
hi, everyone... hope you are doing great there!! =)
Monday, July 07, 2008
pieces
is it a trend to just put up a link or a video?? anyway, i stumble upon this sound. don't know how to use imeem.
seems nice.. so yea. =)
Friday, July 04, 2008
aggression
what would happen if u try studying, putting every bit of information in ur long term memory, and trying to make a connection with ur neuron net, trying hard to remember all u have study, and yet forgetting 99.9% of content if not everything once you flip thru the next page.
how would u feel? what emotion u tend to project?
and what would happen when frustration overwhelmed ur level of coolness?
arrggh!!
to make matters worst, i just finish watching SAW. damn nice. no, i'm not talking bout myself. rather it's a movie. don't know apa tu... click here.
more aggression piling, arousal naik.ing... grr!!
how would u feel? what emotion u tend to project?
FRUSTRATION!!
and what would happen when frustration overwhelmed ur level of coolness?
AGGRESSION!!
arrggh!!
to make matters worst, i just finish watching SAW. damn nice. no, i'm not talking bout myself. rather it's a movie. don't know apa tu... click here.
more aggression piling, arousal naik.ing... grr!!
Thursday, July 03, 2008
tagging addiction
this is what happens when a person gets to obsess/addicted/crazy with tagging in facebook.
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heck.. i can't even differentiate whether i pressed the next page button. =/
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heck.. i can't even differentiate whether i pressed the next page button. =/
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