alarm clock

it's been raining practically everday in d morning for the last 1 week. and i have been getting up everyday in d morning for the last couple of weeks. in between 3-5 in the morning tat is. i don't know why... no alarm clock to wake me up. just my own biological 'alarm clock' waking me up. how cool is that.

is the sky mourning for me as well, as i'm also having a rough time dealing with my own situation. how cool is tat as well, 'they' 'cry' with u.. opps did i just say cry with me. lolz...

if u r thinking what time is it now? ya... it's 5 in the morning. if is 4 in the morning, i'll sing u gwen stefani; 4am. =)

gud nite peeps... or shud i say good morning every1 who r sleeping, n to those freak like me who r not... gaga

have u ever miss a person so dearly till u don't think straight at all? u do all sorts of stuff, that is probably romantic that u could charm her, or probably something stupid that u get on her nerves. u just wanna talk to that person day and night, u wanna see ur partner thru webcam, even though is just thru the eye of a webcam. u think bout her all the time, wondering have she had enough sleep after a night long of working. wondering whether will she fall sick, because of the bad weather. wondering.... just wonder.

just contact her la, some of u might say.

but the tricky part is, u couldn't contact her, because u know she is busy with her work, u don't want to distract her. u try to help, but u can't cuz is not within ur expertise. all u can do is just sit and watch. u refrain urself from helping her, cuz by helping her, u might cause even more trouble.
she's stress up, she's begining to throw tantrum. u try to encourage her, but whateva u say offended her. the feeling is just... but is ok.

so what could u do?

well... all u could do is just sit at the side, quietly. but in ur mind, u r still thinking... thinking of a way...

ouch

OUCH!! a bad gatric, both sides of my tigh are cramp, and a sore ankle.
this is wat u get when u did not eat something for the whole day and have not been excersing for the past a year and a half. geez, should have grab something to eat. and at least do some warm up. but was just suddenly too hype up to go for a jog. heh...
and now, i'm suffering the after effects of it. ==.==

by the way peeps, sorry for MIA for much of the last 2 weeks. heh will try to update my fellow 'fans' more frequently. gagaga

forgive me as i have sinned.

filthy and hurtful thoughts running through my mind,

when it shud be cast aside.